Just another dream. Oh wait, there's Sehun and Kris.

Heeelloo!
It's currently exam period but I'm dropping by to blog! Alright. It's actually because I'm too distracted to study right now. Three papers are over and I'm starting to feel relaxed. Must bring the tension back!! Like... tomorrow moring... Anyway, just so randomly, Jing shared a video of us singing to sing MissA Touch and then I happily forget the lyrics and we burst out laughing. I swear sometimes I sound so awkward singing in Chinese. Point is, we looked so young back then! And that was like a year ago? The things that studying does to us... sighs.

Then we started sharing photos from the past which is so funny. Cause she looked so chubby back then (not like I wasn't. my face looks like I have serious water retention problems). Anyway, we were so cute. And both tomboys. Heh :p

Oh yeah. It's been long since I had dreams. Mainly 'cause I couldn't sleep at night. I blame on stress. I mean, it's ridiculous. I go into bed at 2-3am. I'm dead tired. Immediately after lying down... My brain goes into overdrive.

'Oh! I think you should stay awake for two more hours! Oh, you have to wake up at 7am? No problem! Fall asleep at 4am then!'
I WAS SO TIRED THE NEXT DAY!

'You're trying to sleep? No way! Awesome people does not sleep! You need to exercise and go through the dance steps of this song!'
I ENDED UP DOING STRETCHES 'CAUSE I CAN'T KEEP STILL ENOUGH TO SLEEP.

'Aww you're sleeping already?! Let's form senarios in your head for the perfect lovestory involving your bias!'
HONESTLY, I ENDED UP DEPRESSED.

Yeah. I'm angsty. It doesn't help that I have a temper when I'm stressed. It's not good. Don't let me get started on breakouts! I want to like... kill everyone and buy all the facial products in the world. Yes.

Oh yeah. My dream... It's so awesome I napped for too long and mummy thought I fainted. Funny.
Soooo-
My best friend is married to Exo's Kris (my freaking bias!) and I'm in her house for god knows what reason. Kris was being a jerk. He's so unfriendly and he glares at me and intimidates me with his stupid impressive height. Such a jerk. My friend was somewhere doing something and being shy around her own husband. So ridiculous. Guessed that's why Sehun, the younger brother of Kris decided to call the best friend over, which happens to be me! Hurray.

Oh. The house was so huge and nice. Lucky non-existent friend of mine. And she got married to Kris. Sooo lucky. Anyway, Sehun was a brat and a prankster. But he decided to be kind and help the two idiots get a head start on their marriage life. Don't ask me why he lives in their house. He's a brat. Probably clinging onto his brother or sth.

We played pranks on them. A lot of pranks and Kris got angry obviously. That doesn't stop Sehun tho. That kid. He has blonde hair. You know how I like handsome guys with blonde hair. Okay, I just like handsome guys...

I visited their house like everyday. Haha Goodbye to private lives. That brat called me over, it isn't my fault. So I went and couldn't find him. I bumped into Kris who told me to go eat dinner. Hah. Free fooooood. In the end, I found Sehun in Kris bedroom, on a random sofa, in front of the TV, eating snacks and laughing to himself. Then, the grandma brought dinner up to the bedroom. So funny. Kris was pissed off 'cause you're not supposed to have dinner in bedrooms. But the grandma was soooo nice to us. So Kris was glaring us down and we were eating rice and meat and laughing our asses away. Don't ask me where the wife was. I don't know.

Then, my friend's parents appeared in the balcony (hell, I don't know how. Did they fly or sth?) and asked us if we're eating well. Suddenly, Sehun took out a pink colour phone and started laughing at it, scrolling through some random things. It turned out to be Kris phone. Why does he own a pink phone? I don't know~

Anyway, I think in my dream, Sehun and I are like super close friends or like couple-to-be, only still in denial. 'Cause he had one arm around my shoulder while eating, I don't know how he ate with one hand. Maybe he's an octopus in the dream, but that's not important. And he was sitting too close. And when he laughed, he did it in my face. Literally. Like... the kind of closeness whereby you can almost smell the person's breath. Kris was staring, the grandma looked very amused, my friend's parents were whispering/gossiping. It meant sth right? Hah.

Then, we were scrolling through Kris phone and our heads were touching and we're dropping food everywhere. So fun. And the brat was being so funny. It was a nice dream.

My eyes hurt... T^T

Lesson on Life. Maybe.

Hey people~
I think I'm either too busy to blog or I just lost interest in blogging. That'll explain my absence in the 'blogging scene'. (If there's even a blogging scene in the first place).
So... what's up in life?

Frustration- 'Cause there's only a few things in life that I want and sadly, the most important one seems really unattainable right now. Point is- I'm not getting any younger. I'm almost 20/21 this year. Into adulthood and it makes me wonder what the hell have I been doing with my existence, apart from studies. (And my grades aren't all that fantastic too)

Frustration 'cause what I want is not encourage by my parents (I haven't asked but I know the answer) and because I'm living in SG. Where...everything just seem so... you know, the usual stuff. Everyone here just wants to earn enough for a living, more for luxury, pay off debts for their cars and houses and basically just live to work in their sucky jobs for the rest of their lives. I do not want that. I mean, I do know I will work for the rest of my life, which I also plan to do so until my children says "Mommy, I think that's enough. You should sit back and chill". Yeah. It's just that... work is stressful in SG and more people start to work for the sake of it (or more obviously, for the money). Is anyone really happy with their jobs?

Well, yes and no. Yes, when you meet awesome people and enjoy the relaxing days where work is smooth. No, when work piles up and you just curse and swear and wonder why the hell did you even apply for the job. There're times like this for everyone- but bottom line is- if you really like your job, hell man, throw me the most difficult task ever, I'll be happy to conquer it for you. That's what I'm looking for. I can pull nighters, I can dedicate my whole life to it. It's fine. As long as I'm happy, you try and stop me.

But... sadly... what I want isn't in SG and I seriously wonder when my parents will let go of  the leash on me. Problems with parents nowadays- they protect their children too much. They care too much. They expect too much. I thought being happy is the most important thing. You wanna die a happy person rather than regret that you didn't laugh enough on your death bed right? I'm sure no one wants that. Quoting from a movie or a video- when children were born, parents were thrilled, naming it the moment of their lives when their child starts walking and blabbering in an attempt to speak. Then, walking isn't enough, they should learn how to run. Oh, blabbering is bad now, you should learn to think before in a cultivated manner. And also, running isn't good enough, you should be the fastest runner in your school. By the way, being polite is overrated already, learn to speak with facts and dignity. You're the fastest in your school? Good, now aim for your country. Oh, your neighbour uses more vocabulary than you, you should go read a dictionary. You're the fastest in your country? Shame on you, kids your age are already in the Olympics. If there ever an end to it? NO.

You can probably see how greedy people are. I don't deny it. If I have a kid, they're certainly going to be the best. But is that what your kid wants? Some parents force their kids into studying certain majors, some choose schools for your kids. Seriously, do they want to be in there at all? You want to know why some people end up as bums or achieve nothing in life when their lives are already planned out for them? Exactly my point- their lives are already planned out. Do they want to be in a business major? Do they like the school? Do they even have any interest in the program? They have no personal goals, no say in anything, it makes them lose a battle before it started and that's sad. They don't have will. It's just... pretty sad. Really. To those that fights back, good for you. Keep going. ('Caue I'm going to do just that)

I think I'm going to get too naggy in this one, so I'll stop.
My point is- Are you happy? Do you want to be controlled for your whole life? Do you have plans for your own future? If your answers are all positive, then start rebelling and stop hiding. Hiding gets you nowhere.

(Honestly, all I need now is just a mere reply of an email... Two weeks has passed. Another four to wait for).