Boohoo T__T
Jaejoong is sad today!
Damn. Coincidentally, I'm rather down today too.
Lack of sleep.. Can't sleep last night.
Sigh. But at least I'm not sad. Just tired.
Hmm. Alright. Back to work.
Well.. You won't see this anyway..
BUT. CHEER UP JAEJOONG-SHI. (or jaejoong oppa, whichever you prefer)
Calling older guys oppa feels so over-rated somehow. sighs.. Fangirls fault.

WAHAHA I am a genuis.
Fact: people forget 90% of their dreams.
Heh I remember 90% of my dreams. It just depends on whether they're interesting enough to rem or not. wahaha. Cool much?
Alright, bye!

Going to grandma house now! Gonna try my new cargo mummy bought. It was originally hers >_< I don't really like it. But well.. I like new clothes. What to do..

heheh I shall go and read Thorn Lily(gashiyeon) later. Jae read it! ^^
But I'm not 18 yet.. and it's mature themed.. HM. *unease*

Hehe Sidenote: I need a new curtain.. Dark coloured I Guess.. Hm But it doesn't suit my room.. My things are all light coloured. Maybe dark pink or blue. Yup, matches with my room. HAHA Suddenly I love my room colour combination.. Blue, white, pink, yellow. *thinks of yijing's pink room and shivers* Yeah, I definitely like mine more. :p

Woah~ I dreamt that I was a businesswoman! hehehe After I pretended to be a waitress at some crappy restaurant that bullies me. Don't know why must pretend to be waitress. I negotiate deals with people yo! How cool is that! xD Then someone, I don't know his face, made me a box of.. chocolate icing sugary cake thing? It looks very nice though.. And edible. But who the hell is that peson?! Hm. Confirm not Jaejoong or Eunhyuk or some grown up cause the person's my height.. Ah. Whatever. I only like the businesswoman part! Heeee. I even have a secretary! ^^
Morning everyone!

Hmm.. I dreamt that Jaejoong was my boyfriend. And I had a rival.. Some random girl whom I don't recognise. He came to fetch me from my house. I forgot something and went back up to take. He waited in the car park. In the lift, someone attacked me. The lift door suddenly opened and it was my rival who planned the attack. But she got attacked by someone else. The attacker betrayed her I think. Then.. Chaos. Jaejoong appeared to save me. The attackers attacked him.. In a very.. inappropriate way T_T (my poor jae) Then we got thrown in the lift lobby. What the hell. It was super scary.

OMG. Heaven's postman is awesome!! xD
Jaejoong's too handsome inside. GAAA~
Okay, time to go hand up my reflective journal ^^
Be right back.. in an hour?

Fishing was disastrous! All I did was chase kids and feed mosquitoes. Gosh. Itchy all over. I have pictures! Will post them when I get home. Maybe I won't be going school on Weds.. No bus ticket back to Singapore. Sighs. Let's see how it goes.. Anyway, today was a great day eating.

I'm going fishing now! Update later! Internet's back! ^^
Woohoo marketing done soon! xD

>:O
My uncle say Jaejoong look half girl half boy, he must be gay.
What the heck!
Jaejoong is manly okay! Way manly than him!

The panda bag I bought! It's super cute. Love at first sight. Though it's pink. But it's a nice pink. A little red, pink, orange.. I think I'm gonna be colour blind soon.

I don't know why, but I feel like Sandara Park when I tied my fringe like this. Self praise,I know. That girl's gorgeous. But, oh well. I think if I get any whiter, I'll go translucent.

Sometimes, I wish Dad didn't sell his car. Travelling so far is so not fun. and I have alot of things to bring. Sigh. I need to do marketing project in Muar. Don't even know if there's internet. Or if it's fast enough. That place's not really advance. Maybe I can go relief some stress. I seriously look like I didn't sleep for days.

OMG. If ironing a dress shirt can make one scream like that, then don't iron it!
Leave it! I didn't think one would rather buy a new one for $40plus than to simply iron the old one. Fine. So much for helping to save money. I thought we were pretty tight on cash this coming new year. Fine. I don't care anymore. One don't appreciate my efforts anyway.

Honestly speaking, I am very disappointed.

Life lesson from TreTre:
If you start searching for something when you know you will never get it back, it's too late.
Keep it safe, if you know you are gonna lose it.
If you lose it after you have done your part, you will know, it was never meant to be yours.
(Did you give all your best trying to keep it safe? Have you ever wondered if someone will steal it when you turn your back?)

Dont keep a lion in a cage, starve it, released it one day and expect it to be thankful to you.
(Chances are, even if the lion is fed well, it will still kill you. Why? Because lions don't belong in cages. You can't steal freedom like that in the first place.)

If you and your friend are kidnapped, the only way out is to sacrifice one of you. The kidnapper hands you a gun and you will make the decision who to kill. You or your friend, choose one. Who will you choose? If you choose to kill yourself, the kidnapper will kill your friend later. If you kill your friend, the kidnapper will kill you later. How will you choose? Is it even possible to choose?
If it's impossible to choose, why are you falling for the kidnaper's trick? The best way is to survive together till the end.
Why give up on your friend's life or your own?


You get my point?

I will stop watching DBSK AKTF videos. Fans are really awesome.
They make videos and made me cry.
Even dramas don't have this kind of ability.
Well. Yeah, AKTF.
Why do people only realise things that are right in front of them when they lose it?
Why am I liking DBSK only after they are split into sub groups?
Really =.=
I should start cherishing whatever I have now.
Who knows what will happen tomorrow..
DBSK.. teaching life lessons since 2004.
*insert dbsk picture*

Jaejoong wanna act as a vampire!
Junsu's acting as death in Elizabeth!
Yoochun.. is a historical person!
Hmm. So cool! Just like a fanfic I read last time!
It's called The underworld, I think. No idea which fanfic site. But the storyline is quite cool.
Like Mission Impossible style. But in the form of fiction?
Jaejoong was a vampire inside. Junsu's a elf, which is really funny. Yunho was a werewolf and they kept calling him 'dog' for some reason. I mean.. Wolves and dogs are two different creatives you know! Eh??! WRONG STORY!!
Junsu's the werewolf!! Yunho's only human. Changmin's a zombie and Yoochun's a ghostly spirit.. Eh? Changmin's the ghost and Yoochun is death. O.O
I read so many Mission Impossible fiction style stories that I can't rem which characters match which story. AH WELL.
Anyway. I stopped reading fanfic long ago.. Changed to manga instead. They're funnier ^^
Maybe I shall read some later. Since I can relax a bit now. Hehehe Busy week over!
HM. But nice fanfics are hard to find nowadays. Some writers have actrocious grammar, even if the storyline is good, I couldn't bring myself to read it. Some don't even type properly. Some use brown text with a black background. Really smart. Some are just gross. Too much gay stuff inside. Well, some are cute. But others are just gross.
Oh wait. Did I mention that I only read DBSK stories? And did I mention that sometimes writers paired them up together?

YunJae - super popular amongst cassies but also the one I hate most. Cause they're plain gross in stories. Writers can't seem to not make them not kiss and stuff. Seriously, I know they're both sexy and hot and whatever you call them. But why make Jaejoong the girl everytime?! Whenever they do that, I feel like a gay okay? Jaejoong's a guy, for god's sake! And I am definitely not accepting Jaejoong being feminine!! GRRR

Yoosu - I like them actually. Less gross, more cute factor. I like cute things. Super popular too, after YunJae. So, Yunjae's first, Yoosu second, Changmin.. forever alone. Or Minfood. Yeah, that food monster.
Anyway,storylines are mostly more innocent and of humor. Well, they always make Junsu the girl. But that is non of my concern, his voice is girly sometimes anyway. In one story, they made him the ELF. HAHa And the other members got to be cool creatures like vampire, death, zombies etc. ELF. Well.. SuJu would be happy. But ELF!! Really, why is Junsu so fail in fanfics? And in another one, they made him blind. Poor Junsu. I pity you. Forever the weak one.

JaeMin- Most violent pairing ever. Ever heard of their 'one touch' attacks? Only Cassies will know I guess. Haha Sometimes it looks like fun, sometimes it's just painful to look at. Nothing to say abt them. Not that popular anyway.

HoSu- SUPER DON'T LIKE. It's plain weird. End of story.

JaeChun- Not really popular. But because of JYJ, Jaechun is gaining popularity. Yoosu becomes neglected. Aww.. Junsu fails. AGAIN >.<

JaeSu- I like. Quite cute. Forever cute storylines like Yoosu. In a story, Jaejoong was an alien and student was a student. A rather freaked-out student, I might add. REALLY HILARIOUS. hehehe ^^

HoMin- Got famous cause of band split. Well.. Not a supporter of this weird pairing. Both so tall and bulky. Like two blocks put together.. WEIRD. Don't like.

Well.. Obviously the best is DBSKOT5. When the world was peaceful and great music still exists.
COME BACK!!!!

A lulluby(?? forgot how to spell) to sleep.
I used to listen this to sleep. It works like.. a lllurby(?).

I think I'm commiting suicide >.<
Slight fever yesterday, yet I stayed up till 3am to do work.
Woke(I typed worked instead of woke before I checked what i typed =.=) up early this morning and started doing work at 12.30pm?
Finally, done at 6pm.
Yeah, this is totally a suicide attempt.
Gosh. I feel like god. haha >.<
Work like Tretre!
Yeah. I'm still pretty much alive.
Gonna take a nap soon. Panadol's making me drowsy (I typed drownsy by accident. wait! how do you spell that word?)
I'm not thinking straight anymore..
Even listening to Eunhyuk songs and JYJ songs don't work.

why so cute~

LOL!!! Just realised my mistake.
I have nothing dedicated to you. ROFL!!! what the heck am I saying.
I meant. 'I have nothing' dedicated to you.
Gee. Importance of punctuation.

I have nothing dedicated to you. I will sing it to you if I dare. But I don't, and I suck. So no song singing for you. One day I'll try, but not today. It's what I wanna say. Read well.

Lyrics:
Share my life, take me for what I am
Coz I'll never change all my colors for you
Take my love, I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide


Well,don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me...
Don't walk away from me.
Don't you dare, walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you

Well, I may not be hurting. But I don't appreciate this feeling. I'm trying to understand and communicate with you, so why are you turning away from me? "Dont turn away from me~" *sings* I want to help. Really. Maybe sometimes I sound a little harsh on my words, a little too fierce when I don't intend to, seem a little too childish to understand, a little too distratced to listen, a little too happy to emphatise, a little too self-absorbed to notice, a little too stupid to see the big picture, but all you had to do was call my name, you know.

Get my attention, that's all you need to do. Let me know if there's something bothering you. Let me know if I did something that offended you. Let me know if you need someone to listen to you. Let me know when you need to rant. Let me know if you think I'm not paying enough attention to you. Let me know when you are sad. Let me know when you are happy. Let me know when you need something. Let me know when you are angry. Basically, just let me know if it concerns me. Or somehow, related to me. I can't promise I can make it all better, but I can try. Or at least, you have a shoulder to lean on. I can't promise you I can emphatise fully, cause I'm not a sensitive person. But at least I know the situation and not rub it in. You know? I don't wanna force you into anything that you don't want,like, so I need to know what you think. It frustrates me to see you being too quiet or pulling a long face everyday. Yet, I don't need you to plaster on a fake smile everyday. I mean, yeah, I get my moody days too. It's totally fine. We're girls, we get emotional. I understand that.

hmm. I'm lecturing ain't I? Shall stop that. Please. Give me a response. Any response. And don't deny and say that I'm thinking too much, it's nothing. I'm pisces here! I sense things.

P.S Dont tell me the used to it bullcrap. It's not a valid reason anymore.
^^

I totally rem crying at this part!! T__T

YES YES YES~!
I'M ALMOST FINISHED WITH MY WORK!
ONLY F&B AND MARKETING LEFT!
Hurray~! Feels so good.
Felt like my hard work had paid off. Although the results might not be as good..
But whatever! I did worked hard okay!
I thought I was going to die~
Working too hard.. Makes me laugh too much or unable to laugh.
But I think I laughed too much. *loose wire in brain*
^_^ hehe
I'm gonna do F&B in..10 minutes?
I need a little break.
And I forgot today was Weds. I thought today was Tues. No wonder I didn't bring Comm skills textbook. hey, why did I bring Econs then? >.< haha! Whatever.
Oh, by right, today is Thurs already. Is Thurs Kinyobi? Or Katsuyobu? No.. I think Katsuyobi is Fri.. Oh well. Shall memorise next time. Jap listening test is coming soon.
Sigh. I should had learn all these languages when I was young. Can remember better.
Don't know why I picked up the useless Hokkien. No one taught me.
MaybeI shouls go watch more Jap shows then I'll pick up Jap too.
My mum said I used to listen to her and grandma talk, that's why I know Hokkien.
Hmm.. I wonder if I'm really good at languages or I'm just good at remembering people's conversations. Haha
Bye! *abrupt*
^^

http://www.allkpop.com/2012/01/super-juniors-kyuhyun-and-eunhyuk-spotted-checking-out-someones-behind

As the title says. haha it's funny! ^^

Such a chore to want to do a good piece of work.
So much things to research on.
Coffee, any volunteers?
Hehehe
It's cold these days.
Or is it only my room?
I'm wearing a sweater at home..
Hmm.. Falling sick or just the weather?

>.<

So much school work. It's heavy.
I must keep on fighting!
It's not time to slow down!
The road is still ongoing!
Gosh. How hard to motivate myself with my own silly words..
Better continue doing work.. what should I do next?
Done a little of F&B, I can finish up tomorrow.
Comm skills online, LOST at how to do it.
Jap translation, done.
Reflective journal, need to organise my words again and type out in proper sentences.
Marketing project, NOT DONE YET. Presentation's on Monday. And I'm still trying to arrange the whole thing into a proper report. The format is just weird.
POM article analysis, a little done.

Alright. Seems like I have to do POM now. Since there's tutorial tomorrow..
Yeah. My stack of newspaper lying on my bedroom floor.
I wish I'm someone who can sleep for only 5hours and NOT have eyebags, dark circles, and stay awake after that. Not to mention cracking of voice, bad complexion and pulling a long face.
Definitely not good.
I have not even read 1/4 of the book I borrowed! Gosh.
What ever happened to leisure time and ME time?
T___T

Sighs. I'm going through 'Cassie heartache' now.
Why did I have to go watch JYJ's thanksgiving concert?!
Why?! Doushitte?! T_T
It makes me happy.. Their vocals are awesome as usual.
Yet sad. Only 3. And Jaejae cried at the end.
'W' is such a song. You know. It's the SONG. T_T
Honestly, I teared up watching the whole 3 hour plus video >.<
First song - 'Kimi... (too long)' : teared.
The song Junsu sang.. Erm.. Beautiful love? : teared.
The drama song Junsu sang : teared more. That song is beautiful by the way.
Any ballad lover will love that song. I'm a ballad lover! ^^
Then.. 'I have nothing' : Totally teary. (Damn I'm emotional today)
'W'.. Did I say anymore? T____T
*burst out crying*
Well.. I didn't. But it was close.
If you had watched the concert.. It was more of Version 3 crying.
Junsu's way. Haha
Their talking intervers(sudden fail at english.. Is it correct?) were funny.
JUNSU TIME! JJANG JJANG~ Haha
He got pranked by the drummer anyway. KAWAII DESU!! ^^
Great concert. Though it was pretty short as compared to Secret code concert.
That one was crazy long. Over 30songs I think.
I started watching at around 11 and when it was 2.30am, it hasn't ended yet.
Gosh. Wookie and I were going 'after this song we go sleep' for 5 songs straight.
In the end, we gave up when they sang 'Bolero'. Only two songs left. But it was already 3am.
I can imagine the ticket price. BOMB >.<

Well.. Ignoring the 'cassie heartache', I must remind myself that I'm still half an ELF cause of Hyukkie. Or maybe 2/5?
2/5 for hyukkie.
2/5 for Jaejae.
1/5 for Junsu.
1/7 for Changmin.
1/7 for Yoochun.
1/10 for Yunho (I don't really like him. Sorry!)
Opps~ exceeded.
It was on purpose ;)
Time to type out my mkting case study!
Such a spoiler really.

Arigato gozaimashita!
Honestly, my Jap isn't good, But at least I understood Junsu and Yoochun a little. Jaejoong.. sighs.. Jaejoong was just.. ALIEN LANGUAGE.
Would really appreciate if he stops mumbling and getting softer with each words he speaks.
I should tweet him.
But I won't.
What colour's JYJ now? I only know Jaejae likes green...

It's serious talk! Though it's funny. And he's bouncing on his bed.
Well.. ^^ Yeah. You're beautiful~ Why doubt yourself?

Rap. It's pretty cool ^^
Way to start the day!

A little personality test ^^
I'm down to earth!

Hello ^^
I'm up pretty early today! I didn't just woke up okay. I woke up at 9am. Though I drank alcohol last night. Well, I was thinking of Jaejoong while drinking. Don't get me wrong. I don't encourage drinking. It's my friends bday.. So we had to toast. Besides, the red wine didn't taste that bad. I have had worse tasting red wine. Haha Super bitter. Anyway, I was thinking of Jaejoong cause he drinks alot. And I was wondering how well his alcohol tolerance is. As well as mine. Hmm. Whatever. Mine must be pretty bad since I don't drink often. But it was alright last night I guess. I finished mine and helped Yy finish hers too. Haha No, I'm not turning into a alcoholic. Manners to finish your drinks right? >.< Besides,my friend had to wake up early for open house and I didn't get dizzy so it's good ^^

Oh. And during dinner, I seriously felt like a..pedophile? This pri6 kid was totally flirting. Oh gosh. Wanted to smack him badly. But I just met him.. Don't wanna leave a bad impression you know >.< haha Can't imagine him when he grows up. Should be funny. Cause he's pretty cheesy. Pick-up lines and all. Seriously, those lines don't work on girls anymore. Find new ones, buddy! =p But thank for liking everything about me, though you might not really mean it. hehehe ^^
Oh. He added me on fb. Which I dont mind. Then he followed me on twitter.. I don't think I wanna know how he found me. And his tweet.. Sighs. I hope it's not directing towards me. Or it'll be super weird. I'm so much older than him! Ehh.. I just realised it's the same situation towards Jaejoong and I.. The age gap. Haha. 이게 뭐예요!! (what's this!) Ige mwoyeyo!
hehehe ^^
bye! I got no appetite today. The weather's too warm to eat! Sighs..

Hello! I'm happy! ^^
Cause I found JYJ come on over videos and watched them all! Maybe except for the JYJ together parts.. It's either they don't exist or I can't find them. Yeah. The variety..isn't as funny/interesting as I thought it would be. Rather disappointing I say. But.. well.. Junsu's cats are pretty cute. Yoochun was funny.. Jaejoong was random most of the time. Junsu sang most of the time. Now, I wonder if I got the correct videos. The GIFs I saw were really entertaining. Hmm.. I shall continue my search later. Better than buying the DVD. It's USD$300? Crazy pricing really. CRAZY. No one in their right minds will buy it. Unless they're some really rich fangirls.. Then I have no comments on that. Luckily, my blog is rather.. not popular. hehehe Or else I would have been killed by fangirls already. Bashed or something, or saying something like this. Haha >.< But I still love JYJ alright? No worries. Jaejoong will remain my bf. I will hire Yoochun as my pianist and Junsu as the clown. HM definitely sounds good. Then Eunhyukkie can laugh at Junsu the clown.
WOAH. WAIT. What am I saying?
Back to comm skills research~
Anyway, sorry for wanting to kill people yesterday. I was rather frustrated while doing marketing last night. All the information that I wanted were not there. Some infor given to me were irrelevant. Should have checked thoroughly.. HM my fault. Oh well! ^^
Bye!
For those that wants to watch JYJ come over and can't find the videos cause youtube deleted them. You can find it at www.veoh.com. Just type it in the search bar and you'll find it! ^^




Have a good night everyone! ^^

oh gosh oh gosh!
Xiahzart! Always wanted to watch!
Where did this come from?! So cool~
^^
This is so awesome! AHH. Can't describe in words.
The lyrics of the song makes me think..
sigh.
AWESOME!! Musicals are so cool like this.
How I wish Singapore's musicals have people like this inside.
Then I'll definitely go watch it.
I can't stand opera stuff.
Elizabeth please come to Singapore! I know it'll be nicer than Xiahzart!
Gosh. Xiahtic and Xiahzart.
The contrast.

Motivation. HAHA
His english pronunciation is better than Jaejoong's.
By so much. Jaejae didn't learn english hard enough!
^^

Sighs. Dumb China cooking shows.
They showed small cute little rats creatures.
I literally went 'AH~ Kyeo!' (which means cute in korean)
Then, they showed a bowl of soup and said it's really healthy.
AHHHHHH! What's with them!!!
And also. KIMJUNSU!
Almost wanted to fly over and strangle him.
He went to Sydney for JYJ3hreevoices DVD.
At this restaurant, he was deciding whether to order Kangaroo meat or crocodile meat! KIMJUNSU!! NOOOO~!
Kangaroos are so cute!!! You can't eat them!
Luckily, he ordered crocodile meat pizza instead.
Which he said 'taste alright' not 'delicious'.
HAHA at him >.<
See if he dares to anyhow eat animals meat again! Pssh.
Okay. Confession. I ate crocodile meat before too.
When I was in primary school. I thought it was pork okay?
But it's so much harder to chewier. Not nice.
It seriously taste alright only.
Hehehe No eating of Kangaroo meat!
@$^%*$^%##$%##&*$@#$# <---- my form of vulgarities?
>.< Haha. I know JYJ scolds vulgarities. I just do.
I mean.. Listen to 'Get out' and 'Mission'!
Solid evidence. Besides, Jaejae wrote 'Get out'.
Can I say I'm disappointed?
Is there anyone out there that doesn't curse?
I only know me and Jing-chan T_T
What's the world coming to?!

But, I'm pretty sure Eunhyuk doesn't. He's such a good kid!
Wahaha He doesn't even drink alcoholic drinks!
Hehe I shall tell HuiTing.. Jaejoong can be her husband.
I got Hyukkie. ^^
But Jaejoong can be my bf. She said she doesn't mind sharing =p
But I mind sharing.. HMM. Let me think it over.
Hohoho! I feel silly.

Time for a shower and some work!
Marketing case study and project, here I come!
*I'm pretty depressed*
Marketing consultation made me realised that there's alot of things I missed out.
I need to show my members my work tmr!! T_T Someone, help!
Anyway, my day was pretty.. horrible?
Stomach cramps that refused to go away. Missed my alarm..
No. I think I off my alarm when it rang and I didn't know.
Or.. it rang till it off by itself. Why am I such a sleepyhead?! AHH.
Maybe I have the ability to sleeptalk or sleepwalk or sleep-do-things.
It isn't the first time it happened.
I have no recollection of my alarm ringing. Or turning it off.
Gosh. I have the SHIMCHANGMIN DISEASE! O.O
heheh Just remembered. One time, I wanted to go to the washroom in the middle of the night. I don't know what happened, nor did I know I actually got up from bed. I ran into the wall beside my door and woke up.. Maybe I really Sleep-do-things. That's dangerous isn't it?
^^ Hope tonight will be better.

New Eunhyukkie bag~ ^^
Eunhyukkie calendar! Wookie bought it for me! ^^ Thanks wookie!
The books I've decided to borrow to start off 2012! ^^ hehe

DBSK - Tonight



Blown away~ BOOM!
Haha
I really did said that out loud.
Pray and hope no one heard me.
^^ This song is just.. WOW.
Super hard to sing.
You can try, but you'll fail.
No one can sing it as well as DBSK does.
Well.. Maybe cause they're the originals.
But hey! One can try right? ^^
Can't believe Jae was once tone deaf.
He's just awesome.
Guess training really does help a million.
Gosh~

DBSK - Keep your head down Mr removed



How awesome. BEST. Beat that :p