OMG. KimJaeJoong needs to stay strong.

AKTF.

After you're done crying, you move on.

A 27 year old man can deal with this.

You're much stronger than this.

Come on, man.

Tsk.

Mood: confused, worried and annoyed

Only a few days I didn't check updates and I get all this crap.

Ahhh~

OH and JYJ concert ended successfully! Hurray~

Today is so awesome! I shall post the pictures next time xD
Thanks to all~! ^-^
Though my hair still got BBQ smell and I'll probably have sore throat tmr..
HAHA. It was fun! ^-^
DAEBAK friends!
I'm so tired.. ahhh Good night all.

Wow Junsu. I hope he sticks with being Tod(Death) forever.
It totally appeals to me. Though we could minus the nail polish anytime.
Why they never let Jae try out with this kinda image~? WAE.

I wish my family would go out after work instead of staying home. It's so boring! There's nothing to do at home anyway.. *sulks*

HM I'm bored. Although the ramyeon flower boy show is kinda funny. Still, I need to do something other than slave my eyes out. But both my parents are home and the neighbour's dog is barking, what can I do? Moma just told me that she forgotten my bday was on mon. Great. And my dad actually remembers. Switching roles? HMM. It's weird. Anyway, I almost got 'kidnapped' to malaysia today. Then, I almost couldn't go out. But I couldn't possibly wait at home all morning till night just for dinner right? That would be.. ABSURD. I will sneak out. I PROMISE MYSELF. Hah! ^-^ Oh. And moma also said that Jaejoong was ugly. WEll, she said the poster beside my bed was ugly. Which means.. It means the same thing. What am I saying. Then, stupid me, went to tell her how Jae has alot of piercings all that nonsense. I got scolded and warned not to get anymore piercings. HMPH. It wasn't my intention. *hands up*
Oh. One more thing. My dream- Eunhyuk, Ryeowook, LeeTeuk, Shindong were selling chicken rice. Hah. The fans were crazy, the shop was packed. Dno why I still went. But I was VIP I guess. hehe I kept sneaking into the kitchen to disturb them. And obviously got chased out by a knife, courtesy of Eunhyuk cause he was cutting potatoes? LOL And then I got served by Leeteuk the waiter, but requested for Eunhyuk, the potato chopper. Haha Of course, that monkey threw his gloves and came to serve sulking. Rather childishly, I need to add. Then he started laughing and gave me an extra plate of IDK what. Well.. *Fans will kill me* I waited for him to close the shop and we walked home together. *Fans killed me* Sudden change of dream, nightmare starts. Something about planting a stupid flower in a dessert and crocodiles in a lake. My flower drowned btw. Which didn't make sense.
*sobs* It ended so retardedly~! Oh why.

I've been sleeping till noon for the past week. I should really stop. Sleeping too much makes me more lethargic. But what shall I do today? I feel hopeless man. Knew I shouldn't had read that Saseng article. Have people lost their minds and forgotten they're merely humans like us? They'll kill them one day, I swear. Now now, if I were really an angel of death.. heheheh. Imagine the situation now. Perfect hell. *sinister thoughts*


Anyway, this is the picture that the demanding photographer took of me. Damn. He took like a few hundreds and he only posted this? I'm gonna kill him for wasting my time. At least let me see the others. Damn it.

Awesome~! Wooo~ xD

One thing I do know is - If I get stalked like that. Around the clock. Everywhere. Sasengs are EXTREMELY violent btw. They always cause accidents.

ONE. I'll go crazy. Like mentally crazy. And go around killing all the sasengs. See if they like it.

TWO. I'll retire and stop being a celebrity. Hide at home and rot to death. Since getting a job else where is quite impossible.

THREE. Hire bodyguards round the clock too.The guards will most probably quit after a week.

LAST RESORT. Protect myself with any possible way available. Cuss, swear, kick, hit, fight. Whatever helps.

Give the boys a break man. Have you seen Junsu's eyebags? They're horrible. They make mine look like nothing! People all have their breaking points. I'm surprised Junsu didn't swear. He should, really. Even I, probably one of the few humans on earth that doesn't swear, is encouraging him to do it. Helps to release some tension. Good for health.

HMM. I wish I have at least some power to do something abt the stupid JYJ violence case. But I don't. Which sucks. Then their flight to Chile got delayed. What the heck. Nonsense nonsense nonsense. JYJ stay strong! ^-^ AKTF anyway. Cassies know that.

And we have some logical answers for their absurd behaviour! Why can't all fans be this mature, I wonder.

The article by Top star news:

Not long after videos of JYJ‘s Yoochun using violence against a fan were leaked online, several internet media sources reported articles and provided audio sources of the members using profanity as well as physical violence when dealing with the ‘Sasaeng’ fans. In response to these reports, netizens and fans alike began voicing their opinions which said, “No matter how severe the situation, it is wrong to swear at and physically hit a fan,” while others argued, “How much did they endure to react like they did?”

The JYJ members are constantly thanking their fans during interviews and through their own respective Twitter pages, so why did the JYJ members use physical violence and curse at these girls that claim to be their fans?

Those of you reading this article, imagine that you’re a member of one of today’s hottest K-pop idol groups, not only in Korea, but you are also receiving extreme popularity overseas. Since your debut, you have consistently maintained your elite status as a top idol star, and the more famous you become, the more the media reports rumors in attempts to slander you. The moment you step out of your home, there are long lines of cabs who follow your every move. They follow you 24 hours a day to your hair salon, your way to work, and follow closely behind you when you crawl home after a long and exhausting day. Your overseas activities have never been publicly reported, but a throng of fans are awaiting you at the airport, overwhelming you with cameras and flashes, but that part isn’t so bad.

Imagine you receive incessant texts and phone calls from unknown numbers late at night, preventing you from getting the few valuable hours of sleep you need because of your hectic schedule. You decide to change your number, but when you do that, you immediately get a text message: “Why did you change your number? Did you not think I would find out?”

If this were happening to you, how long would you have been able to put up with it before exploding? Some would of gone as far as most likely paying the fines and breaching the contract with their label, no matter how much the agency demanded.

The above situations may seem fabricated, but for JYJ, it’s actually a reality. After JYJ debuted as part of TVXQ in 2003, they immediately rose to fame not only in Korea but all of Asia as well. The members featured on a few television programs and talked about these Sasaeng fans in the past. But back then, no one truly understood what they were dealing with, nor did anyone really care. Though they asked the fans to respect their personal lives, their request merely echoed back to them without much response.

The Sasaeng fans who closely follow JYJ are fans who want to be well-known amongst the celebrities. They want the stars to specifically remember them, and they want to be a little closer to them than the other fans. On their blogs, they report on a daily basis what the stars were wearing, where they were going, and what they were driving. These then become the most-searched items on Korean portal sites late at night.

The series of events that have recently surrounded JYJ show how much these Sasaeng fans have harassed the members, and how much the members were forced to grow accustomed to these fans. The number of these kinds of fans do not shrink in number but only grow with time, including not only fans from Korea but also from Japan, China, and beyond. In order to imprint their identity, the fans have done things like intentionally cause car accidents, and send their under garments stained with menstrual blood as ‘gifts’ to JYJ. What’s more, the fans have also broken into the members’ dorms to take pictures of themselves and sent them to the members.

Over time, the more these sorts of situations arose, the more aggressive the members had to become in order to maintain their space. They used profanity against the fans not because they have ill intent, but in order to protect themselves from them. JYJ has done everything in their power to try and keep the fans at a safe distance, but because they can’t, the members have now actually grown afraid of these Sasaengs.

There have been a few times where the news reported stories of celebrities being stalked by fans. But when it comes to idol celebrities, the situation is completely different. Because the fans’ of idol groups are generally young minors, no legal action is taken against them, and are just let off with a warning. But it seems as though these measures only fuel the Sasaeng fans to chase the celebrities even more closely.

On an older current affairs program, a reporter once remarked, “It’s a relief that the TVXQ members have not gone insane.”

It’s true, it’s a relief that these celebrities are able to maintain mental stability and still stand and perform before the public.

From here on out, the public needs to understand Sasaeng fan activity as a type of evil in society. All reporters and media outlets who receive tips and information from these Sasaeng fans and write articles with ill-intent in order to slander the images of these celebrities who are working non-stop to promote K-pop globally, need to remember their real duty and responsibility.

Comments of other people/fans:
-anyways, people should know that anything can be edited, and even if it wasn't, i don't think cursing or whatever is shocking for a 26 year old guy who's been harassed for over 9 years!

This particular person is super smart! ^-^
-what baffles me is

1. Why would someone who stalks them so often only take an audio recorder and NOT a video camera and/or cell phone? Wouldn't video be better evidence than audio that could have been edited..?

2. The "fans" themselves are conveniently edited out. What was done prior to what these "recordings" reveal?

3. It's pretty damn convenient that JYJ would do this at an exact moment someone happened to have an audio recorder - and even knew about it from what Junsu's recording is implying. What provoked it? Why would any idol - knowing full well they're being recorded - do that? It doesn't add up.

4. We hear these "hitting noises" but WHERE exactly is being hit and WHO? Without video it's impossible to tell and for all we know it could have been added in later. Were they attacked and defending themselves?

Sorry, but I just can't even force myself to think for a minute that something like this would happen completely unprovoked or entirely how it's being portrayed. Too much is missing, too much is too convenient. They might have reacted to something strongly but that still doesn't define what they were *reacting* TO. You don't "react" if something didn't happen to begin with and it boggles my mind that someone could have the presence of mind, time, and opportunity to record audio but not video or take pictures - no less that people who LIVE to do JUST THAT (video/pictures) wouldn't think to or have the means.

-Thank god. I was waiting for someone, anybody to actually show another perspective of the situation.
To be honest, even if it were true, I think the public is perceiving this from a very one-sided point of view. Though I definitely do not approve of Jae or Chun's actions and think it was rather rash for them to swear at them, people tend to forget that they are humans as well. People always say things like "They're idols, they have to watch what they say and present themselves well to the public," but even with this burden and duty they try to uphold, they are and will always still be like us, the common people, underneath.Ever gotten extremely angry with someone and cursed or used vulgarities? Have people forgotten that Jaejoong and Yoochun could well have either not been feeling well or have their own troubles to deal with? Okay, that aside, look at it this way: You've got people trying to molest you, and you try to tell them nicely to go away but they don't leave, they try to pry open your door and bar you from leaving. You're tired after a vigorous day of performances and jumping from one venue to another, and all you want to do is drop onto bed and get the last few hours of sleep you can before you get whisked away to another country. You're exhausted and even though you appreciate your fans, you still, as a human being, treasure your privacy. Putting it on the line to be an idol is already a sacrifice but everyone needs a little time to themselves. With cameras shoved into your face and people screaming at you, and all you want to do is be alone so you can think about your problems, there's a likely chance you're going to snap someday. Though I still do not think it was professional of them (if it really is them), I still forgive them and I know that people have our limits. How many times have you seen your parents come back home, irritated from a day of work and throwing a fit at whoever provokes them a little? It's the same. They're adults who feel like any of us, and though they shouldn't have done that, being the people who the public admires, we have to accept they make mistakes as humans, and give them another chance.Sometimes, everyone just forgets they started out just like us, and that part of them once being a kid, who dreamed big and jumped about on their bed, singing to CDs at the top of their voices when their home alone, will never leave them. They want privacy too and sasaeng fans are extremely violent if you truly see them. I've seen a group of 50-70+ girls try to bar JYJ's van from leaving, and even tried to pry open their door and smash their windows, all for the sake of just touching or seeing them. They loiter outside the dorm and try to break the windows and vandalize outside, and steal things from your house and continuously scream outside your house even when it's late, just so you'll pay attention to them. They are scary and until you meet them face-to-face, you'll never actually get a taste of what it's like to have people always on your back, never letting a single action of yours go. I know, they are fans who love idols but there's a limit that you can't exceed. Jaejoong and Yoochun (and Junsu) need their own privacy sometimes and I feel they are entitled to it.Sorry for the rant, I just had to say this. By the way, Dispatch has never been a reliable source of news.

Need I say more? ^-^

Their concert is gonna be awesome~!

I wanna be there!! T-T

So.. Jaejoong and Yoochun are involved in violence and cussing. What's next? Sigh. Now I understand how no one is perfect. Jaejoong's use of vulgarities.. WOAH. It is enough to make me gag him and throw him into the ocean. Luckily I don't understand much of Korean. Or I'll flip the table. Seriously. It's that BAD. Partly, I blame the stalkers. They're ruining their well built image. Where did their PR people go~!
I guess humans will be humans.

Perhaps one of the reasons why I adore Luffy is because he's the exact replica of Eunhyuk.
Why are they so alike~! He seriously can jump..

His english is so much better than I thought. Nice pronunciation.
To spoil it a bit, the more I look at his mouth, the more i get this impression that he's someone that drools alot. hehe Sorry >-<

WOW I finally found the post I was looking for.
Didn't regret one bit.
But now that it really happened, I am AT A LOSS at what to do.
What should I do?
Why do some wishes come true so easily and yet some doesn't?
Oh, and that wasn't even a wish. I was leaving it up to fate. GAAAA.
Fate likes to fool around with me.
Grow up, fate.

Sidenote:
I don't think we can ever be friends again.
It's like kidnapping someone, releasing the person and asking him to keep in touch. Eh, it's from 9gag and I think it kinda make sense. So if we ever meet, let's just smile and pass okay? ^^ Because you were someone important to me and I know I won't forget your existence. Except if my brains spoil or I have memory loss. So I'll just locked everything away. Don't talk to me, I'm warning you. Since I've warned you, you can't blame me if I'm bitter or sarcastic. Cause you're the last person I want to see. Unless it's your dying wish, I will not make exceptions. Mehrong.
Bye!

Wow. Felt like I should apologise to Tod for making a big fuss when he kisses Rudolf. Haha The pic and video totally tells different stories. And the video is so much cooler!! I mean, the atmosphere and everything. That musical is awesome man. I love dark themes. Esp death. wahaha ^-^ And yeah, that wasn't kissing. Tod was sucking the life out of Rudolf. So cool. I hope they release a DVD. Better still, bring it to Esplanade! I promise I'll go. Along with another few hundred of screaming fans.. Eh, I think I better not go. *SIGH* Cassies makes my life difficult.

When reality hits and things don't go the way you predict. It sucks.
But thanks for being honest. I like that.

I swear MissA got the best dances ever. Apart from SNSD. So interesting to learn. haha ^^

Just yesterday I said guys are turning gay for Jaejoong.
Today I found this video.
What to say.
Their singing is quite good. And I thought the one in white was Jaejoong.
Look at his accessories and hairstyle!

GUYS ARE TURNING GAY FOR JAEJOONG. WHAT CAN I SAY.

WAAAAAAA Exams are over!!! xD HOLIDAY HOLIDAY WAHAHA DAY!!
^^ I'm too excited ain't I? hehehe
What can I do? It's holidays!! Eat sleep play! FREEDOM~!
From all the school work! Yeahahahahaha~! xD
*over reacting*
Wahaha so refreshed suddenly. When I'm suppose to feel dead tired cause I just finished dancing to random songs that I normally don't listen to. Like Rainism. Haha It's pretty nice to dance to. But I need bigger space and mirror. I keep hitting the wall. PAIN! T_T Well.. whatever. Feels so nice to be 'exercising' after so long. Woooh~
=D I got a Toni Toni Chopper! Wahaha I got business in ToyRUs now. hehehe Brenda's fault. I'm gonna collect the full series! And figurines! xD One piece addiction now. Luffy is awesome! He can be my boyfriend if he wants. Oh.. exists I meant >-< Nyahaha
Bye!