I shall be gone for four days!
First day of exam today. 
Wish me luck! ^-^

Simon and Martina from Kpop Music Monday rocks.
Didn't know they were supporter of JYJ.
Now, I do. I always thought they only like to make fun of Junsu and the banana-thing.
HAHA Anyway, awesome~

Hello everyone!

Natsu Matsuri was yesterday!

Did you go? It was fun!

Ehehe I got tons of pictures! 

Courtesy of Rina & Jing.

First of all, the period where you're trying to grow out your fringe and you have absolutely no idea what to do with it. It's neither short or long. What to do? >_<

Haggard pale Trecia. Maybe it's the lighting. But I'm pale. And I like my french fries shirt.

The wishing balloon from Natsu Matsuri! It's gonna be there till it burst.. Or when someone decides to turn on the fan? Oh wait, it doesn't affect. Cool! Must be mummy's work.

Before the Yukata wearing~ When we were all normal..

 That's Ajusshi Boar!

TADAA~! 

That's Enoch? Rina's Shinyu (which means best friend in Jap)

Let's do a proper pose..

And a cool one of course!

Torturous dinner time!

The Yukata has to be tight, so it's rather hard to sit and eat properly.

I only ate half of my Bento..

And I love Bentos..

The Sunny in between the SooYoung and the Yuri.

If you know what I mean >-<

Tired trio waiting for Ajusshi Boar.. The funny faces start coming out.

Wearing a Yukata is nice. All flowers and that. But it's so.. stiff! I can barely climb stairs and slouch. Well.. A must wear if you go Natsu Matsuri. I mean.. That's the point of going right? To try Jap stuff! And Yukata is a must! Though there's a rental fee.. Hey, it's better than buying one that costs $200-$300! Next year, I must choose one that is less purple and flowerly. This is too AHHHH! So this is the time and last time I'll be in something that's so.. girly. 
Teehee~ Time to study! I only have one time for lappy time today! Aww man.


Oh yes, my trip to Malaysia. Let's just conclude it quick:
My whole family is 4D. If you know what I mean.
Maybe that'll explain why I'm in my own world most of the time. It runs in the genes.
O.O My kids are gonna be 4D too! Oh no! Let's find a 4D husband then.. *hints erhemJAEerhemJOONGerhem* But he's old.. Age is not an issue. BUT HE'S OLD. Girls should find someone 7 years older to match the mentality age. Wait a minute, he's 8 years older. Good, he's more mature than me. Okay okay. It doesn't make much sense does it? Let's think of the language barrier first. I should start learning Korean then. The squares and circles- Here I come. (After I'm done with my AM, ILR, ROM & Acc)

Hey people! ^-^ I'm back from Malaysia!
I'm pretending not to panic 'cause I've only finished studying one subj, which is ROM. And there's three more to go! I only have a week! Minus Sat which happens to be Natsu Matsuri, Japan Summer Festival and I'm going. Well.. How abt six days left?
Anyway, my lappy, which I realize I have not name it yet, has 'migrated' to another world, which is the living room. Poor lappy. I wish you luck on top of the printer. You can bond with your friend for a while till I'm done with exams.
Will continue the rest of the post next time.

Hello ^-^
Selemat Hari Raya~! Lalalala
Okay. I'm in my cousin's (Wookie,Manager Hyung and Anti-fan's fan) house. IN MALAYSIA.
I'm starving now! Bao for breakfast again. Haha
Yesterday's dinner was a disaster. More funny though, but we were all starving. Famished, like.. hungry ghosts. (oops, ghost festival). Then we thought we ordered pizza (more like ordered someone else to order pizza), and waited for 2 hours. (In my lousy attempt to study in front of the TV and my cousins' crazy antics). The pizza never came, we waited from 8 to 10 to 11. WOW. No food. Then, we found out the pizza was never ordered, and we ended up with some fried rice and noodles from some uncle (a friend I think). FUNNY. We ate like.. hungry ghosts. Literally. Everything tasted so AWESOME. The pros of starvation.
So now, I'm hungry and I'm gonna find food!
Tadaa~ I mean, tataaa!
I swear I'm gonna study.  

CnBlue's HEY YOU.
Enjoy ^-^

I'm going to Malaysia for three days.
Haha Feels like I'm celebrating Hari Raya.
Actually, I'm damn angry now.
So I'm venting my anger by dancing. Sweat and.. more sweat.
It feels good. Blasting the volume feels good.
Sweating in aircon room feels even better.
I must be crazy..

XIA- Uncommitted
Elated? Disappointed?
Honestly, the starting melody was awesome..Then.. Hmm it gets a little bland towards the end. Like it lacked something for an english song. Maybe some super awesome belting or screaming part.. Hmm, perhaps. Sounds a little No gain-ish, just that it's in English. 
But Lyrics, awesome. I love it.
Mv.. At first, I was like why is he with so many different girls? And then I realised.. hey, it fits with the lyrics. The 'she' in the lyrics is correct! Junsu is a player! hmm anyway, MV-wise.. Didn't really like it. Junsu was all sexy body, yeah. Too much touching. Don't like. (me and my selective skinship problems again)You guys know abt me and my cute-junsu resolution anyway. So yeah. Nice song overall.
Maybe I'll like it more if I listen to it a few times more.
'she said-a-a-' ~ 
haha Nice hair colour btw. LOVE that the most. Blue hair Su.
*hugs* His hair colour is THIS.. THIS. Get it? ^-^

The funniest so far.

See the cute 3 little badges? Spot the badges! Haha No prizes though.
Okay, so my post today will be about ELEPHANTS! ^_^ Elephants are cute.
Anyway, what I wanted to say is: 
DO NOT RIDE ELEPHANTS! 
Because most elephants that were used for rides (esp in Thailand), are PREGNANT!
Yes, they're female and pregnant. Imagine that! 
Carrying humans and this large wooden thing on yr back, when you're pregnant. Torture isn't it?
So do not ride them.
Also, these elephants aren't fed regularly (serious case in Thailand), and they still need to carry tons of kgs. It's pretty tough. Starving and still used for labour work. Poor creatures.

And, pregnant elephants get miscarriages. Yup they do. It's hard for elephants to get pregnant and they can only give birth once or twice, and they get a miscarriage. That's pretty harsh. 

Therefore, have pity on them. During your trip to Thailand, please reframe from elephant rides. I know Thailand is famous for its forest elephant rides. But think of these suffering creatures.
We can't keep taking away the lives of unborn baby elephants then complain when they're extinct 'cause it'll be our fault.
 Okay, end of speech. 

Did you all see Junsu's uncommitted teaser? It's nice. I like the melody of the song already. And the rap inside. Haha He sang: ''un-co-mi-det. Oh well. I still think he's cute. But he's going towards the style of.. mature. Maybe cause he thinks he's old. Well, old man Su.

Recently, I kept giving names. You know, from running man, Blank Jihyo (Happy birthday!).
Old man Junsu.
Childish Jaejoong.
Chunface Yoochun.

And then today we have:
Salesgirl Rina.
Sniper Jing (since last week)

Hmm cramps and the weather ain't helping. Bye~
>-<

I'm heating up for fun.. Or is it just the weather?
Hmm why does blogger keep having pop ups? It feels like some internet spam.

OMG I am freaking out. For a lot of my naps, I've been dreaming of teeth. Regarding teeth.
For a short one hour nap, this dream is way too long.
Yijing and I were in this.. horror house thing. It wasn't scary.. sth like harry potter? If we encounter someone talking and we don't want to listen, we must walk/run/escape quietly without him knowing. He can't see, so he'll sense our presence, and there's this creepy voice that will tell him. So we succeeded in escaping from many, except for this last old man. He was boring so we left. Then this creepy voice 'whispered' "They're getting away!" So we ran and hide in one corner of a random room. We were freaked out and squeezed into this dark corner hugging the lungs out of each other. Then we got caught, cause the room we were hiding in was the man's bedroom? Then I tried to protect Yijing and got punched. My teeth started dropping and everyone freaked out. 

Here's some of the interpretation regarding teeth: 

To dream about losing a tooth represents man's innermost worries - death, age, weakness, destitution, and loneliness.

To notice your gums in your dream suggests that you are having difficulties communicating your emotions or thoughts. To dream that your gums are bleeding indicates that you feel others are working against you.

EWW. Omg. For a few times, I've dream of being punch and my teeth dropping. It's all bloody. It doesn't hurt in the dream but I always woke up in shock and check if my teeth are still intact. It feels so real. And.. it's not only one.. One drops, then another follows.. Then.. Yeah. I'm so freaked out T_T 

I guess I really am worried about my life..

To dream of hiding indicates the safeguarding of a secret or escaping or postponing a confrontation. You might end up confessing when threatened.

To dream that you have been beaten shows that you must make some major alterations in how you live your life. 

To dream that you are in a darkroom indicates that you are pausing in hopes that something will occur in your benefit.

Loss of teeth represents powerlessness.

A scriptural interpretation for bad or falling teeth indicates that you are putting your faith, trust, and beliefs in what man thinks, rather than in the word of God. 



For previous dreams: 
Jaejoong/Eunhyuk:
Symbol of social status and attention. Dreams of friendly interaction with celebrities reflect feelings of increased social status, especially when a celebrity treats us "like an equal." Attempts to contact a celebrity reflect needs for recognition, attention, and validation in our lives. If we experience difficulty reaching the celebrity, this may reflect unfulfilled desires for status and approval.
(wow)

Random: HAHAHA Godzilla!

To dream about Godzilla suggests that you have a sense that you are not in command of your life and that a situation is starting to get away from you.

Shrek doesn't have hair? Or does he?

Too bad, I have to work EVERYDAY. 

Yoochun..

Haha What? This is like Jing and I.. But they're worse.

We use upside down phones.. They used a towel and mic..

I think we're all crazy people.

But this is just a coincidence. So.. 

Many wouldn't know, but Jae and HanGeng were good friends.

And Hangeng is so cute when he calls Jae for help.

Something about getting lost. 

Jae has such a wide connection.

Attempt to take a pic facing the light: FAIL.

It was too bright for a person that just woke up.

Why would I take a pic when I woke up?

'Cause my lips were bloody red. Like RED RED.

And it was cool. And my cheeks were pink. 

Like PInK PINK. So it was cool too.

But the lights were too bright.. I couldn't help it.

Super Junior- Outsider.
A really happy song that tells you to NOT CARE ABT ANYTHING. GO WHEREVER YOU WANT. DO WHATEVER YOU WANT.(for dramatic effect) Haha  Sounds so funny.
Basically, you just chill and don't worry abt anything. HAPPY SONG~! *throws confetti*
Enjoy enjoy! ^-^

Today, I just said 'I don't like guys who puts eyeliner. Not my type'

And then.. I remembered.. KIMJUNSU, that XIA. *sighs*

I like >-<  Oops!

But he really looks nice.. Still not really my type. As in, I don't like like him. You know, that way.

But HE LOOKS GOOD! >-<  Aww man.. I can't deny that I like his voice, his dance style, his body (butt *blush*), his weird laughter. Hmm. But I like him more in his boyish looks. This is too feminine. It threatens my existence! 

Ironic Trecia is Ironic.

So call me maybe~ 
LOL I'm joking. I hate that song. I miss my long hair! T_T Why did I go cut it?! Felt like I aged a lot looking at this picture.. Hmm Hairstyle definitely. SSM please be over soon so I can have my bangs back! :'( 
Wish me luck for exams. I think I need it more than SSM. Haha
Stupid Trecia is stupid. Cannot get A for exams..

This is the first dance cover of Tarantallegra I have watched.
Honestly, I don't think anyone can do much better than them. So I'm not gonna watch other videos. Therefore, I'm just gonna watch her and learn from her. (I tried learning from the MV dance version, couldn't get pass one minute mark. Dno what Junsu is doing. He is just too fast for me to catch, too sharp moves)
So.. Standing ovation~! ^_^
She's just so awesome, though she doesn't have enough punch. But that is understandable! She's a lady. I don't expect her to have the strength of a guy. 
But hey! Clothes and hair- perfect.
Backup dancers- perfect. And ending pose- perfect! 
Did I mention how important ending poses are?
She deserves to win. (if it was a competition) It's not a easy dance to learn. And she nailed it!
PERFECT! (well, at least I love it)
BRAVO! Haha
(I'm so generous with my praises today)

Yes. I just proved myself right!
HAHAHA~
It wasn't Jaejoong after all.
Luckily I didn't believe it.

However, I think my morals would be completely destroyed if Jae was different in real life.
If he was different on screen and off. But it wouldn't be right? Since all seniors said he wasn't like that.
In anyway, I don't care much.

OMG. The korean entertainment industry is so DARK.
I am doubting everyone now. Even JYJ.
They might not really be what they seemed after all..
I hate this feeling.
Jaejoong.. Jaejoong was the said one who started it all.
That man.
OMG. I can't believe that can I?

Timeslip Dr Jin is too sad. KyungTak- Too emotional.

Well, Jaejoong did said that his body was too tired so when he acted in crying scene, his body lost control and all those places that could release water, released. Tears, drool, mucus. The sight wasn't ugly. But seriously, must he cry like that? The left state minister (his father) suicide. Must KyungTak cry like that? T_T  It made me.. weak. You figure out what that means. 

Now, I'm thinking. KyungTak said : ''You're the last reason I'm living for. But still, I must protect that reason'. 

It makes me think, what am I living for? 

(Had originally typed a long chunk of angst. Decided not to reveal it. Bad people would use it against me)

 Dr Jin is just a nice emotional show. I just hope KyungTak can start living for himself. 

 My new wallpaper! ^_^

Eunhae as usual.. Looks comfy though. 
Must stop procrastinating already. I only have a week to dateline and two weeks to exams. 

Hello! ^_^
One entry before I go for lunch.
My dream is super epic. And I had two dreams. One sad, one.. quite Sparta.

The sad one:
I was working as a staff member for.. a random idol group which consists of Eunhyuk, Jaejoong, Yesung and one more not important guy.(can't rem if Eunhyuk and Jaejoong were one combined person or what) We were waiting in this backstage area, touching up on makeup and things like that. I was more of the operations side, so I walked around and checked on everything. Of course, there were other girls around too, stylists and such, all pretty. OH!!! The other guy was Sungmin! 

(Oops) Yeah, so the four of them formed a group. So awesome right?
Then, the girls were all flirty? Hmm maybe not. But they were all friendlier and prettier than me. So I stayed in my 'corner' after I was done checking on everything. Haha Emo staff member me.
I think I was mostly jealous because I like Eunhyuk/Jaejoong. I dno which one cause they seem like the same person in the dream. As in, one minute it's Hyuk and the next, it's Jae. I'm confused too. They went upstage for performance.. Blahblah cannot remember.

Backstage was chaotic suddenly. I think some fan sneaked in and stole something? Anyway, it was messy and noisy. Management department was angry, I was scolded for something I don't even know. (so annoying) The group was still playing around, the other stylist went off already and there's only one other female staff left. 

It felt hopeless cause no one could help and I hid in one corner and teared up. Not crying, just silent tears. Suddenly, a hand sneaked out and someone pasted something on my cheek. I was annoyed, what a childish prank and smacked the hand. It was Eunhyuk, smiling like a stupid. I tore the sticker off, not bothering to look at it, paste it back on him and walked off. Felt better but wasn't gonna tell him that. The atmosphere was slightly better after that. Sungmin was playing around with the female staff, flirting mostly. Jaejoong.. I honestly think he and Hyuk is one person. They transformed into each other randomly. 

Eunhyuk disappeared too. Sungmin and the girl's excessive flirting.. I told them to get a room. And they did. They opened this random door which happened to be the changing room and went in, I followed, for some reasons. Then, this Eunhyuk was changing inside! His pants was off! (In my dream, everything is censored so it's fine) Everyone's expressions.. Super EPIC. (You can imagine it yourself) Eunhyuk quickly wore his pants, of course, and screamed at us. Sungmin laughed. The girl.. I dno? She was leering and winking at him? I was just frozen. Then, Eunhyuk blushed. So I thought he liked that girl too. Blah blah blah~ Can't rem.

Sungmin kissed the girl. Eunhyuk wanted to join in or something? He asked me. I rejected and prepared to walk out, mumbling something like 'you stupid i like you stupid eunhyuk and you can say these stupid things..' Something like that. They heard anyway.

I gulped and ran out. They chased. Battle zone suddenly. Everyone was chasing me. I ran into a cubicle and cried. Everyone came into the female washroom anyway. Then they broke the door and dragged me out. I cried like.. Tears, sweat, mucus. Eww right? :p And unglamly shouted that I like him or sth.

Eunhyuk paste a sticker (It was a post-stick) on my cheek again. He ordered me to read it. They left me in the washroom with him, on the surprisingly clean floor. I flipped it over and read. WOAH. Surprised. On it, words were written : ''(Date written) Dear you, you cried again. Don't cry. I don't like it'' Something like that and hearts and smiley faces were drawn. Then Eunhyuk took out one whole box of post stick which I assumed were the ones he always paste on my cheek.

I read all, smiling like a stupid too. Then he asked 'Are you mine now?' (Dies and went to heaven)
I hesitated and pushed the box back to him. Wanted to explain (the reason was cause of his career I think) to him why I couldn't be his, but he just sighed and stood up. Without even a backward glance even when I shouted, he walked away. I cried, obviously. No sticker this time T_T

He disappeared like air. Into the thin air. I think I'm staying in the same building as him. Woah, the complex in my dream is super awesome. Everything is made of glass, which is kinda dangerous but I looks so classy. Then, there're random pools here and there. Small pools and big pools. Bedroom super nice, living room nice too. Everything is nice. Too bad you people can't read my mind, or you'll be blown at the design! ^_^

I got the key to his unit, but for a few weeks, it was empty. He didn't come home and I visited everyday. Clean his house, cooked meals and such. No one came home. Did I mention his windows were super scary? It's those kind that is full length, open it and the whole thing opens, and if you're not careful, just one step out and bye bye. It opens outwards. A miracle I didn't fall to my death in the dream. Then random part came..

A musician, really random one, came to his house claiming to look for him. He plays the piano really well. Then, the apartment phone rang. And he was called into the studio. Apparently, Jaejoong was there. (Hyuk turned into Jae. Same person rem?) I was sad, angry, disappointed. All along he was living in the studio?! The studio was an out-of-bounds place. Even I didn't clean that place. And that random musician was invited there. *sulks* 

I sat at the staircase sulking at the railings and staring at the studio door. And then, (even more random part), BoonWee appeared. Yes, my new classmate that is kind of funny yet has the most annoying facial expressions. He appeared in the room behind me, which is his bedroom (since when does he live there). He went : 'Oii stop sulking. The door's gonna break. Jae won't see you' I sulked more and complained that I even washed his pool for him and almost died and he wouldn't see me and I need to explain and he's so childish and I like him blah blah. BoonWee sighed REALLY loud and sat beside me explaining that his brother (when is Jae his bro anyway?!) is sad too blah blah. I started tearing up again and he sat there awkwardly trying to comfort me. 

But happy ending I guess, cause the studio door opened, and Jaejoong stepped out, looking all so awesome. No idea where he bathed or even change his clothes. I flew to him of course. Like finally, he's out! BoonWee laughed at me. Then, I was hugging Eunhyuk? Haha Told you, they're the same person! It's all good ^_^

Sparta dream:
I'm the King! Muahaha. I'm serious. I'm the president for this underwater country. We're all underwater people. Like the country underwater. Whatever. We're just normal human living under water. Of course we have the government sector and normal civilians too. I think my country was under attack by the world upstairs. Everyone was extremely cautious. We were all having a discussion dinner and I was walking around. The rest were eating. A suspicious maid caught my eye while serving a drink to one of the ladies, a member of court I think. I stopped her from drinking it and ordered someone to get a glass of cola. I poured the weird black 'cola' into the real cola, and smoke came out. It was acid? Like those dangerous kind. Everyone was shock and the maid was taken away. Then, something weird came floating down from above us. It look like a bomb or granite. So I told everyone to run. They were so confused, no one moved. I moved away first and when the weird thing hit the ground, it exploded. Like a really small explode. Everyone ran! Chaos ensures. 

I'm the ruler, so I ordered them blah blah. Get the civilians not to come out, go to the bomb shelter and such. My four trustworthy subjects, IU (LOL), Taeyeon (LOL) and two guys I can't rem. They were the last to run. I went ahead to put up hidden signs and ordered them to stay alive. In a threatening way. The bombs were no joke. We could see a lot of battleship shadows above us.
It was a mess. But the country was alright in the end. Oh well.. I happen to wake up. 
  

What kind of show is this..

Ahh two faced kyuhyuk. Funny~! ^_^

Boomshakalaka~! 
Ookay, too random. I'm sorry!
It just came into my mind when I opened a new posting page.
Sign to go to bed? Maybe~ But I refused to!! *sparta*
I wanna play running man too! 
It seems so fun.. I demand Running Man to open to public and invite me!
Haha Dream on, Trecia. It's never gonna happen.
Seeing normal civilians doing stupid stuuf is not half as funny watching idols.
Hmm.. New goal: Become an idol
?? Yeah, need to get into bed.
But I need to pack my bag for chalet!
Ahh well.. Let's get the old DBSK songs into my MP3 first!

I still love Macros.. Seems like I never did grow up.

My sense of humor is the same.

Two songs by Soulmates (not a new band, mind you) to start the night.


Melody's little too slow though.. Haha

The dorks of the century

I'm sleepy suddenly.. Sweet dreams. I shall snooze for five.

Now I know how much I am worth to you.
How silly I am to not realize earlier.
Thank you. I'll treat it as a life experience.


This will not stop me from treating people with a pure heart.
At least I know myself.
If someone decides to take advantage of that, well.. I'll leave it to..
Karma? Maybe.


Because I have a guide in life. A role model to learn from.
I will not easily stray from the right path. 
I hope.

Set of Dr Jin

With Young Hwi & Kyung Tak.

YoungHwi doesn't look like a hyung.

                                 
Whoever plays with Jae turns Jae-ish. That little poke in the butt is so Jae.
Ahh well.. Looks like the atmosphere of whatever JYJ acts in is always good.

An elephant for awesome Jaejoong. Heard this was hand painted??

BoA ft Taemin


BoA ft Eunhyuk


BoA ft Yunho


Not being bias- Eunhyuk was so smooth! Did you see his expression? Oh my god.
I wanna dance with him too! T_T  I think he did the best. I mean, this is totally his normal dance style. And the getting up part.. I always thought he was super inflexible. Maybe I was wrong.. But I clearly rem he couldn't touch his toes! How did he manage to get up so smoothly? Stomach muscles? 


Taemin was good too. But he looks awkward. Maybe he's not close with BoA? Or too nervous.


Yunho- his height is the problem. The part where he lied down and needed to get up? Nope, not smooth at all. Maybe cause he's too tall. But I like his hair. So flat and long. 


Anyway, Eunhyuk's the best. Must I say this once more? Haha Then again, everyone has their own interpretations and styles they like, so it's all cool. I only like Eunhyuk's style the best.


BoA is the best!

Hello ^-^
I ought to MIA for a month until my exams are over.
But it's too long.. And too many distractions.
I have a lot to catch up on. 
Especially Accounting. Well.. Let's just say perhaps the first test was easy.
Sigh. Just received news to go my grandma's house.
That is by far the most boring place ever. And everything's so awkward there.
I'll never be in a good mood there. Well, family complications.
Whatever. At least mommy bothered to bribe me with Sushi. 

How to be the best version of yourself 

(though this was interesting. Even educational)

Wear clothes that actually fit your body and make you feel good. Don’t buy the t-shirt you feel sort of fat in because guess what? You will always feel sort of fat in it! Furthermore, don’t buy an item of clothing that’s too tight as motivation to lose weight. You won’t do it and the item of clothing will just sit there, taunting you and your body.

Spend less time hate-reading things on the Internet and more time reading things that will enrich your brain. Reread your favorite novel or essay and try to glean something new from it. Read something that will motivate you to create something, that will motivate you to be somewhere different than where you are. When in doubt, just listen to a particularly inspiring podcast of This American Life. That usually gets the job done.

Surround yourself with people who make you want to be a better person. More kind, more considerate, more productive. We are a reflection of our surroundings, which means that if you’re hanging out with gross people, you’re going to be a little bit gross. Spend time with people who excite you, who possess qualities you would like to have. Walk away from a hangout session feeling invigorated, not dejected.

Take yourself out on dates. Go to the movies by yourself at 3 o’clock in the afternoon and try not to feel so small. Eat lunch outside and bring a book so you’re not just staring into space. It might be scary at first but you’ll settle into it. It’ll feel good. After it’s over, give yourself a kiss on the cheek and text yourself in the next 24 hours saying, “I HAD SUCH A GREAT TIME! LET’S DO IT AGAIN?” Respond immediately with “YES.” Phew. Pressure is off. You are into you!

Let go of the ex who treated you badly. Let go of all the terrible things that have ever happened to you and replace it with this optimism, this certainty that everything will be okay and that you’ll eventually become the person you were meant to be. Some days, it will feel like you’re so far away from accomplishing your goals and that’s okay. Goals are meant to feel far away. That’s why we work towards them! To get some perspective, just think of where you were two years ago and I guarantee that you’ll see that progress has been made.

Avoid the following things: Going to parties with people who are more successful than you, eating over the sink at 4 a.m., talking to your parents about money, talking to ANYONE about money, getting lunch with an old best friend you have nothing in common with anymore, kissing someone who makes you feel nothing, kissing someone who makes you feel too much, not kissing anyone at all for a prolonged period of time, not leaving your apartment for an entire weekend, engaging in behavior you know will make you feel ashamed. Easy as pie, right?

Right.

Pay attention. Be self-aware. Try your best to understand those around you. Through understanding others, you’ll gain a better understanding about yourself.

Change is gradual. Change doesn’t happen with a new pair of jeans or moving to a different city. It comes from within. Our generation has no real markers for where we should be. We get there when we get there. The answers are less obvious and clear. All you can really hope for is that you survive with your self-respect intact. In the meantime, just enjoy the ride.

And if you feel nauseous at any time, feel free to throw up.

Thanks to: ThoughtCatalog.com

^_^

Enjoy the day everyone!

The last 10seconds. HAHAHA~! xD
I'm gonna face tomorrow with a light heart!

Let's not be friends anymore.

You didn't think I will think this way?

You think that I will really be this stupid in my carefree ways?

Nah, everyone have a side they do not show.

It's to protect themselves.

You think I don't notice after I found out what you're doing?

How long are you gonna keep me in the dark for?

You think I don't have ears to hear for myself or see for myself?

Or don't I have other ears to tell me or see for me?

Seriously. Am I the naive one or you?

I might be stupid and dumb and insensitive.

I'm the last person on earth who'll probably know the whole world hates me. 

(If they do). Yes.

Sometimes, I let things slide. 'Cause they're not major.

Cause they're not an issue to dirty my hands with. 

Cause I still have that little faith within the naive pure heart presented on the table.

But I do not understand your logic.

If you care about someone that much, why do you push them away?

Or do you not know your actions are pushing them away?

I always believe that if I treat people kindly, they have no reasons to do the opposite.

I dare not hope, dare not even think of you truly wanting to be my friend anymore.

I felt used, somehow.

Thinking about the past incidents, you're talking to me cause I'm a leeway to others.

I'm a backup support for you when you're falling.

I do not want to be that.

Surely, there are people around who appreciates me more. 

And you don't seem to be one of them.

Tell me. 

How long has it been since you gave me your honest opinion?

Why does everything seem alright to you?

Do you not have a mindset of your own?

Or do you just want to be the masses and not an individual?

I also do not understand why my anger was always seen as a joke.

On why I was always not taken seriously.

Maybe you perceive me as cute and harmless..

Have you ever heard of a baby cub growing into a lion?

Yes, you call that changing. 

Well, I call that self defense.

It's time I start being selfish right?

My limits are at.. its limit.

So I can afford to be selfish right?

I think.. because of you, I'm turning into a selfish and mean person.

Karma will surely get me.

But it's okay. My conscience is backing me up.

I gotta look for courage now.

Seem like he ran off with friendship.

I can't laugh with people who I don't trust.

It'll be blue cause it's stitch's colour and you like stitch.

Obvious enough?

I hope so.

And I hope you realize how many times I forgave.