You didn't think I will think this way?
You think that I will really be this stupid in my carefree ways?
Nah, everyone have a side they do not show.
It's to protect themselves.
You think I don't notice after I found out what you're doing?
How long are you gonna keep me in the dark for?
You think I don't have ears to hear for myself or see for myself?
Or don't I have other ears to tell me or see for me?
Seriously. Am I the naive one or you?
I might be stupid and dumb and insensitive.
I'm the last person on earth who'll probably know the whole world hates me.
(If they do). Yes.
Sometimes, I let things slide. 'Cause they're not major.
Cause they're not an issue to dirty my hands with.
Cause I still have that little faith within the naive pure heart presented on the table.
But I do not understand your logic.
If you care about someone that much, why do you push them away?
Or do you not know your actions are pushing them away?
I always believe that if I treat people kindly, they have no reasons to do the opposite.
I dare not hope, dare not even think of you truly wanting to be my friend anymore.
I felt used, somehow.
Thinking about the past incidents, you're talking to me cause I'm a leeway to others.
I'm a backup support for you when you're falling.
I do not want to be that.
Surely, there are people around who appreciates me more.
And you don't seem to be one of them.
Tell me.
How long has it been since you gave me your honest opinion?
Why does everything seem alright to you?
Do you not have a mindset of your own?
Or do you just want to be the masses and not an individual?
I also do not understand why my anger was always seen as a joke.
On why I was always not taken seriously.
Maybe you perceive me as cute and harmless..
Have you ever heard of a baby cub growing into a lion?
Yes, you call that changing.
Well, I call that self defense.
It's time I start being selfish right?
My limits are at.. its limit.
So I can afford to be selfish right?
I think.. because of you, I'm turning into a selfish and mean person.
Karma will surely get me.
But it's okay. My conscience is backing me up.
I gotta look for courage now.
Seem like he ran off with friendship.
I can't laugh with people who I don't trust.
It'll be blue cause it's stitch's colour and you like stitch.
Obvious enough?
I hope so.
And I hope you realize how many times I forgave.
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