Hello to all,
After a hundred years, I finally got myself a portable charger! Using my Sony $50 voucher! At the Sony store! Hurray! 3 cheers to me! (It's kinda heavy tho. Being metallic and all. But well, at least it charges well)
I'm gonna head down to the Singtel store to renew my phone contract tomorrow. A LG for another LG. (Because LG is cheaper than Samsung). I hope the new phone doesn't lag or do whatever shit my old phone does. Praying hard right now.
My day went alright. Would have been better if the weather was cooler. It felt like 40 degress outdoors. I swear sometimes Singapore really feels like a desert minus the sand. (I have no idea why I suddenly confused dessert and desert. Ridiculous)
I went to the temple. Although I wanna be a freethinker. I'm still young so I'll just follow the adults' ways first. Besides, praying isn't all that difficult. Maybe I should start praying before I go to bed. (However, I find it awkward to talk to the air). And I don't really know what to pray for. My parent's health? My future? I am clueless about such things.
Then, I went to Orchard. That's where I got my portable charger! Yay.
Hmmmmmm.
I ate monster curry. It's delicious. Next time I shall try level 2. I love Japanese curry and rice.
I have nothing else to say.
Good night.
._.
Monday, May 26, 2014
Saturday, May 24, 2014
Hero & headaches.
Technically, it's not morning here in Singapore. It's already 1pm in the afternoon. But it's barely two hours since I woke up from sleeping in. I'll just pretend it's still morning. Eating my bread and drinking my coffee. Life~
Adding Yiruma's lovely piano skills- Perfect morning. (Minus the headache part. Why oh why) Can't believe I actually thought Yiruma was a Japanese singer. People can only be this much ignorant right? Hahah. But he's so good. All classic that I've heard of but didn't know who's the culprit. Now I know. Yiruma. YI-RU-MA. Will remember this name for life.
Let's officially start this update with some random stuff.
The reason why I slept in are always because of dreams. Having a dream is similar to watching a free movie when you're asleep. So why not? Sometimes, you even get to be the lead actress or heroine. It's all cool. Hahah. In my dream last night, I was almost a heroine. I'm the wife of a very powerful businessman. And we were at his function with lots of businessman and important people. I had to greet all of them. And there was this cocky businessman who refused to shake hands with my husband but he wanted to shake my hand. And he told me to get him a drink.
I went to the kitchen and couldn't decide which glass to use. The goblet or normal tall glass. This waitress came to help me. And then, she added hot water to coke (I don't know why) and placed the kettle in the oven. I freaked out. I mean, it might explode. Which I'm sure it will. Why will she do that?! I tried to removed it but it was already streaming hot. There are no other waiters around too. Panic, panic. Then, another oven behind me, those used in bakeries, started to let out smoke. Thick smoke. I was totally ''Forget about the water man. I gotta run."
I grabbed my husband, screamed at all the business people and ran out.
The scene changed suddenly. There was no husband. No business people. Once I was out of the function, I was in a small commercial building. I screamed at the various shops to run since there was a fire. Apparently, no one bothered. I mean, there's a fire! You don't want to die right?!
I carried this little boy who was running too slow. And his little sister ran with me. I went back for some stubborn people who are too obsessed with the stock market to even look at me. Well, they can die for all I care. Money is more important right? Same goes to the people in the bank. They just refused to acknowledge me. Fine, they can all just burn.
But luckily, the fire didn't spread that much although the building is covered in smoke. I saved like three kids! I'm a hero~ /throws confetti everywhere
Perhaps my headache is caused that the smoke I inhaled in my dream. (what nonsense). It hurts. A throbbing kind of pain. Is it because I left my hair to dry naturally? It came after my shower. Ouch, ouch. I would hit myself. But I won't. /hugs self
Now, it's Utada Hikaru. She's cool too. The singer of the infamous first love. But her songs aren't really my style. Quite honetstly, I don't really like Japanese pop songs. It gives a different kind of feel as compared to English, Chinese or even Korean pop songs. Jap pop songs all sounds like some anime theme song. And they're not really catchy too. I don't know. Just not my style. Hmm.
Oh.
I read somewhere (must be twitter) that humans are designed to sleep 8 hours a day, separated into 4 hours and two sleeps. I'm really tempted to try. (But my current bodyclock is already kinda screwed) It means that I need to sleep at midnight till 4am. Stay awake. Then, continue another 4 hours from... noon till 4pm? Okay, never mind. It sounds horrible already. Why will I be up at 4am anyway.. I won't know what time to have my meals too. Forget it. Terrible idea.
I'm gonna collect my GV card later! And visit my granny. My shirt looks like an apron on me. Problems of skinny limbs people.. Urgh. How can my body be normal sized and my limbs be skinny. I look like a monkey. Sometimes. I just did a proportionate body measurement thing. Don't know if it's accurate but thought I'll share anyway.
According to wrist size, mine is 14cm (cause I have thin wrists, courtesy of small bones)
It's all in inches.
Chest size : 35.8 (No way. Am I small chested or what. Mine is like..31...)
Forearm size: 10.4 (8. Gangly arms T^T)
Waist size: 25.1 (Mine is around 23-25. Depending on how much I ate that day)
Thigh size: 19 (15.3. No wonder my shorts are loose.)
Hip size: 30.5 (Nailed it. Mine is 30-31)
Calf size: 12.2 (idk)
Biceps size: 12.9 (idk)
Neck size: 13.3 (?!)
(strictly for ladies only)
I guess I'm kinda proportionate.. But it makes me sad. I don't know why. It must be my chest. And arms. And thighs.(throws rock at self) Must start eating more..
Alright,
Trecia needs to go out soon,
have a nice day!
^ ^ / T T
(because I don't know if I'm happy or sad)
I think she's the best cousin one can have. Funny, ridiculous, annoying and sensible at the same time. I don't remember having once fought with her. 21 & 20. We really don't behave like we're in our 20s when we're together. And that's where the fun comes in right? ^ ^
Quote of the day:
At the end of the day, you'll fall back to the same place you've started out from.
Because that's your root.
Friday, May 23, 2014
Fantasy & lack of love life.
Hey hey hey,
I'm gonna update regularly cause bottling feelings and thoughts causes depression and stress. So, I'll just share with everyone. It might make your day better or worse. Hmm. I'm listening to Leona Lewis right now. [I will be] is one of my favourite song of hers. She's such a amazing singer. Her suden high notes are flawless. Woooh~
Update of today consist of fantasies. Don't think off track already! It's nothing bad or wrong or matured content. Fantasies are good okay? (Excuses, excuses) This topic came up because I was being all melancholy about my love life. Or lack of. Yeah. Forever alone. Anyone out there with me too? I hope not.
My friend and I were talking about boyfriends and bgr and just fantasizing about certain stuff boys do that are just too adorable or sweet. It started off with a falling sick situation and ended up with me ranting about all my good memories. I'm not going to rant here. Just gonna share some fantasies.
First situation- Falling sick.
Apparently, we both agreed that having a boy take care of you is rather sweet (especially when he's your boyfriend). So much better than your worried mum fussing over you. Yeah, maybe he can sneak in a peck or two too. Awww~ (smacks myself) It'll be nice if he prepares food in the kitchen too. (even if he doesn't know how to cook) That'll still earn a nice backhug and snuggle. Yeah.
Playing video games together, or just games.
People bond by playing together, almost like kids. They play together for a moment and poof! They're best friends already. Yeah, something similar to that. Playing games are healthy. It makes you interact and find out personalities. (If the boy is a sore loser or gentleman). Then you can start pushing each other if you wanna win badly. It's kind of like... flirting? Yep. Something like that. I like that a lot. (stabs self)
Sharing music.
Music is important to me. Bonus if we have the same taste. Enough said, isn't it? We can go for concerts together, share albums, exchange music players, duet. That is just awesome. Super bonus if he plays an instrument. Charming boys plays instruments. Instruments makes boys extra charming.
Sudden thought!
I better stop exposing my fantasies! What if there's a stalker out there? It's dangerous! (Excessive thinking again). Hmm. Alright. These situations are rather common isn't it? I bet many girls fell for such things too. So, where's the guy for me? Still unborn? (sarcasm alert)
Trecia who gave up on updating 'cause she's suddenly busy,
till next time peeps
Good night ^ ^
(I have accepted the fact that my face is round. & my chin is out of shape. & my nose is a button. Have to stop looking like a kid too. Oh, oh. Rectangle smile, long lost brother Baekhyun? Kidding.)
I almost forgot my quote of the day~
Quote of the day:
Don't worry about not finding your partner. There's someone out there who can't find theirs too. Feel the implications~
I'm gonna update regularly cause bottling feelings and thoughts causes depression and stress. So, I'll just share with everyone. It might make your day better or worse. Hmm. I'm listening to Leona Lewis right now. [I will be] is one of my favourite song of hers. She's such a amazing singer. Her suden high notes are flawless. Woooh~
Update of today consist of fantasies. Don't think off track already! It's nothing bad or wrong or matured content. Fantasies are good okay? (Excuses, excuses) This topic came up because I was being all melancholy about my love life. Or lack of. Yeah. Forever alone. Anyone out there with me too? I hope not.
My friend and I were talking about boyfriends and bgr and just fantasizing about certain stuff boys do that are just too adorable or sweet. It started off with a falling sick situation and ended up with me ranting about all my good memories. I'm not going to rant here. Just gonna share some fantasies.
First situation- Falling sick.
Apparently, we both agreed that having a boy take care of you is rather sweet (especially when he's your boyfriend). So much better than your worried mum fussing over you. Yeah, maybe he can sneak in a peck or two too. Awww~ (smacks myself) It'll be nice if he prepares food in the kitchen too. (even if he doesn't know how to cook) That'll still earn a nice backhug and snuggle. Yeah.
Playing video games together, or just games.
People bond by playing together, almost like kids. They play together for a moment and poof! They're best friends already. Yeah, something similar to that. Playing games are healthy. It makes you interact and find out personalities. (If the boy is a sore loser or gentleman). Then you can start pushing each other if you wanna win badly. It's kind of like... flirting? Yep. Something like that. I like that a lot. (stabs self)
Sharing music.
Music is important to me. Bonus if we have the same taste. Enough said, isn't it? We can go for concerts together, share albums, exchange music players, duet. That is just awesome. Super bonus if he plays an instrument. Charming boys plays instruments. Instruments makes boys extra charming.
Sudden thought!
I better stop exposing my fantasies! What if there's a stalker out there? It's dangerous! (Excessive thinking again). Hmm. Alright. These situations are rather common isn't it? I bet many girls fell for such things too. So, where's the guy for me? Still unborn? (sarcasm alert)
Trecia who gave up on updating 'cause she's suddenly busy,
till next time peeps
Good night ^ ^
I almost forgot my quote of the day~
Quote of the day:
Don't worry about not finding your partner. There's someone out there who can't find theirs too. Feel the implications~
Thursday, May 22, 2014
Birthday Celebration. And Moths.
Hello all,
I've decided to do some blogging 'cause there's really nothing much to do at my cousin's house. Well, I could have watched a movie but my cousin's busy studying at the moment and I don't really want to watch it alone. (No fun in alone stuff). So... I'll just rant here, I guess.
Oh. It's my cousin's birthday today. You're probably thinking why she's busy studying when it's her birthday. Well, all I can say is - 3 sisters. Yeah, the youngest' birthday. She just turned 16! Sweet sweet 16th. I miss the times... Guess we're all old now. I'm 20. Old old 20th. It sounds so sad suddenly. Pssh at the sudden negativity. (This keyboard makes it hard to type. My own typos are annoying me) I think we're gonna cut the cake soon before it's midnight! (cause my uncle just returned from a dinner)
Hmm let's see. What can I talk about right now?
Oh yeah, yesterday, I saw a huge moth. It is so disgusting. Guess the whole whooha~ about the moth migrating/invasion thing is real. But they are just so... HUGE. and gross looking. I used to be super scared of moths. And then one night, I was freaking out during dinner since a moth decided to visit my house. My mum told me that it could probably be my grandpa or some ancestor that decided to visit. Funny theory. (It's a chinese superstition thing). I actually bought the story and wasn't that scared anymore. Although I still freak out when it comes within a meter radius. Insects and me - horrible match. But still, here I am, 20 yrs old and still clinging onto that belief that it's a harmless relative. Hmm, harmless.
BRB next time! Time to cut the cake! Hurray~
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAR!
You're really a big baby that behaves like a puppy sometimes but it's all cool.
Cheers.
Trecia gotta go eat cake,
see ya all!
^ ^
(Was back and edited the post)
I read back my posts and realised how my personality changes. Like everyday. Hopefully, it is for the better. Yeah~
During internship, I was so sick of people. Demanding people. But I guess that's also an experience. Eye-opening. Made new friends. Got more insights on certain stuff.
Then, ranting about how my parents are not supportive of me. Whatever I was thinking at that time, I was so childish. Perhaps selfish too. Did I really mature so much within a year?
Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow morning and go ''F**K this world! I'm never waking up again!"
Or maybe I'll be like "Rainbows and unicorns! Today is the perfect day to donate all my bank savings!"
What am I saying this time. Urgh, cake must have gotten to me. (It is delicious. Yumyum)
Tomorrow I'm returning to Singapore. (Hah, sounds like I'm in a faraway country when actually I can just swim over if I'm allowed to) Just signed up for a GV membership too. So I'll probably be searching for some sort of promotion and watching a movie. (maybe alone...anyone?) And I'm gonna apply for JCU. Some program which I'm not gonna reveal till I get in. Hopefully, I do. (Cross my fingers. Really really hard).
Oh. And I read about how I did a music video review on exo's growl and how I complained about exo having too many members (although lesser than SuperJunior). And how I only remembered Baekhyun, Tao, Lay, Kris, Luhan and Kai. I am so amused with myself. Well, I was abt 7 months younger then. I grew up. Now, I can easily name them all but let's not go there. Just for laughs, I used to annoy my friend, who is an exo fan, how their names are so dumb. I kept listing them as Lay Han Kai Kris Min Tao Hyun. I don't even make any sense do I?
Alright. Enough of typing. I'm getting bored with myself. Kay, bye.
I really think that tomorrow morning, I'll just be thinking "Bloody hell. I'm not going home"
Although I should really be home to learn my piano properly, record a few songs, clean up my room, clear my desk, finish my uni application and change my guitar. So many things to do, so much time to procrastinate.
The real bye this time, bye bye.
Quote of the day:
YOLO (you only live once) is wrong. You live everyday but you only die once.
Just... make use of the everyday that you're living.
I've decided to do some blogging 'cause there's really nothing much to do at my cousin's house. Well, I could have watched a movie but my cousin's busy studying at the moment and I don't really want to watch it alone. (No fun in alone stuff). So... I'll just rant here, I guess.
Oh. It's my cousin's birthday today. You're probably thinking why she's busy studying when it's her birthday. Well, all I can say is - 3 sisters. Yeah, the youngest' birthday. She just turned 16! Sweet sweet 16th. I miss the times... Guess we're all old now. I'm 20. Old old 20th. It sounds so sad suddenly. Pssh at the sudden negativity. (This keyboard makes it hard to type. My own typos are annoying me) I think we're gonna cut the cake soon before it's midnight! (cause my uncle just returned from a dinner)
Hmm let's see. What can I talk about right now?
Oh yeah, yesterday, I saw a huge moth. It is so disgusting. Guess the whole whooha~ about the moth migrating/invasion thing is real. But they are just so... HUGE. and gross looking. I used to be super scared of moths. And then one night, I was freaking out during dinner since a moth decided to visit my house. My mum told me that it could probably be my grandpa or some ancestor that decided to visit. Funny theory. (It's a chinese superstition thing). I actually bought the story and wasn't that scared anymore. Although I still freak out when it comes within a meter radius. Insects and me - horrible match. But still, here I am, 20 yrs old and still clinging onto that belief that it's a harmless relative. Hmm, harmless.
BRB next time! Time to cut the cake! Hurray~
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAR!
You're really a big baby that behaves like a puppy sometimes but it's all cool.
Cheers.
Trecia gotta go eat cake,
see ya all!
^ ^
(Was back and edited the post)
I read back my posts and realised how my personality changes. Like everyday. Hopefully, it is for the better. Yeah~
During internship, I was so sick of people. Demanding people. But I guess that's also an experience. Eye-opening. Made new friends. Got more insights on certain stuff.
Then, ranting about how my parents are not supportive of me. Whatever I was thinking at that time, I was so childish. Perhaps selfish too. Did I really mature so much within a year?
Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow morning and go ''F**K this world! I'm never waking up again!"
Or maybe I'll be like "Rainbows and unicorns! Today is the perfect day to donate all my bank savings!"
What am I saying this time. Urgh, cake must have gotten to me. (It is delicious. Yumyum)
Tomorrow I'm returning to Singapore. (Hah, sounds like I'm in a faraway country when actually I can just swim over if I'm allowed to) Just signed up for a GV membership too. So I'll probably be searching for some sort of promotion and watching a movie. (maybe alone...anyone?) And I'm gonna apply for JCU. Some program which I'm not gonna reveal till I get in. Hopefully, I do. (Cross my fingers. Really really hard).
Oh. And I read about how I did a music video review on exo's growl and how I complained about exo having too many members (although lesser than SuperJunior). And how I only remembered Baekhyun, Tao, Lay, Kris, Luhan and Kai. I am so amused with myself. Well, I was abt 7 months younger then. I grew up. Now, I can easily name them all but let's not go there. Just for laughs, I used to annoy my friend, who is an exo fan, how their names are so dumb. I kept listing them as Lay Han Kai Kris Min Tao Hyun. I don't even make any sense do I?
Alright. Enough of typing. I'm getting bored with myself. Kay, bye.
I really think that tomorrow morning, I'll just be thinking "Bloody hell. I'm not going home"
Although I should really be home to learn my piano properly, record a few songs, clean up my room, clear my desk, finish my uni application and change my guitar. So many things to do, so much time to procrastinate.
The real bye this time, bye bye.
Quote of the day:
YOLO (you only live once) is wrong. You live everyday but you only die once.
Just... make use of the everyday that you're living.
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Hey hey to the world,
Trecia is back again. I've finally decided what I want to do with my uncertain boring dull life. Because of certain issues and deep deep thoughts that jolted me out of my delimma. Certain issues that cannot be spoken of (it isn't anything bad and it doesn't even concern me). It made me think a lot.
If I remain stubborn and choose to live life the stubborn way I want to, which includes breaking hearts by leaving my parents (thank god I don't have silbings, lesser hearts to break), my cousins, aunts and just, family members. I don't possibly live past that. There are people around who loves me and wants the best for me. To live comfortably, happily and safely. Yes, thanks for their love. (they don't always show it but you know it's always there. Somewhere.)
So, I have thought it through! (not that my previous choice of live was a bad one). I can just live that life in my next life, or leave it to someone else to live it for me. (maybe after I reincarnate as someone stronger, tougher) Why am I being so ambiguous? Hah, you'll never know. No one knows my dream.
Yes, this is about my dream. The dream that I had since I was 12? Or was it 10? I'm giving it up. It's kind of sad. Cause this dream has followed me through my puberty (horrible puberty) and almost a decade already. I gave it up. I know, people always say to follow their dreams no matter what. Your dreams are most important. Dreams are what defines a person. Point is, well, I don't know, if you give up on your dream, what makes you now? Lesser a person? I really don't know my point.
Perhaps, I might be having these thoughts on impulse again. No one actually wants to give up on their dreams, just like that. I mean, I always despise people who don't know dreams. People who don't know what they wanna do when they grow up. For me, I always lie. When I was a kid, I always lie when others ask me what I wanna be when I grow up. I wasn't brave enough to admit it. I was afraid of mockery. Because my dream, isn't all that realistic. (to certain people). Anyway, I'm turning my dream into a hobby now. So, all is well. At least, I know I won't stop doing the things that makes me smile, frustrated, annoyed, laugh and feel carefree. Yes, I won't ever stop.
I'll live better from now on. Because life is fragile and short. This much I know. I'll study harder. Work harder. Try harder to find an awesome boyfriend. (because I need a tight hug sometimes). I don't know if I will ever marry and have children, cause I'm scared of commitment (not really, it's just the not being a good wife part) and the pain of labor. Yeah, all is scary. I'm scared. (as much as I don't wanna admit).
What was the point of this post again? (Everytime I pour my heart out, I forgot my main point). Uh... okay. That's all, I guess.
Trecia is a better person now! This deserves a celebration I think... Maybe not.
Besides happy things and sudden enlightenment in my life... A close friend is going through distress right now. I'm gonna be there to... uh... be her shoulder and spam her with warm hugs. Yeah, that's right.
In the past, stupid me don't know how to keep people by my side. Honestly, I lost contact with too many people who mattered to me. What was I even thinking? Maybe I miss them, maybe I don't. But they were all people who once brought smiles to me. Made me laughed. Made me happy. Yeah, good memory. But maybe they weren't meant to be in my life. I mean, a tiny few people, I didn't make enough effort to keep them, but they're still here. I'm so blessed. So, thank you for staying. It meant so much to me. I'll try harder. Promise.
What was I saying again? Oh yes. I'll be there! Don't worry about me leaving! We promised to be there till we're tai tai enjoying afternoon tea and bridesmaid and enjoying Friday nights together and all the fun things. Yup. I can't wait. It sounds fun and I'm excited already. (Stop being mushy, Trecia! Since when are you such a softie?!)
To end it, thank you for all who stayed by me. Friends who made me laugh- If I act cute in front of you, then yes, you're a close friend. Not just any friend. I hate acting cute. (although people say I have the face).
Family members- Cousins who annoy me and I annoy. BEST. My aunt who I leeched off of whenever I stayed over. Hehe. Another aunt who always did my hair for free. (I totally love my hair now. It's so smooth.) Just everyone who loves me. I love you back. Really. I'm so glad I finally got time to attend all their bday parties. Thank god to graduating! I never attended any of my cousins' bdays in the past. I was always too occupied with studies and I couldn't leave. Exams, tests, sch days. When it's holidays, June, Dec, March, no one have their bdays there. How unlucky. So, I'm fortunate like that. Hahahahah~
Why am I all rainbows and unicorns today?
On a side note, I wanna go on a date. No, I'm not desperate. I just want to have fun. Yes, with like a boy who makes me all butterflies and roller coaster inside. I wanna watch a horror movie together and throw popcorn around cause we're scared. Play Wii and end up shoving each other cause we both want to win. Walk around the streets randomly eating ice cream. Okay, I'm thinking too much. I blame it on tumblr. They always post this kinda nonsense. Pff.
Oh..
Please respect Wu Yi Fan's decisions. Whatever they are. He has the right to choose what he wants in life. If he thinks it's best for him, then support him. Don't bash or curse him. Because you'll never know why he made his decisions that way. Because you'll never know his story. So, all you can do is to silently support him and his choices. He has that right, at the very least. Because no one is in charge of him except for himself. Not the fans. Not the company. Not his family. Not exo. If he wants to go, then let him go. You can't do anything about it. He is his own person.
People let go because they want better in life. Expect better things. You should be happy for him. And for the record, Wu Yi Fan doesn't need anyone's bullsh*t. He is human too. Feel for him and wear his shoes. If his health condition is real, let him rest if you don't want him to collapse. You know how terrible it feels when you fall sick. So just rest your case.
(Honestly, I'm not into Kpop anymore... Like not the spazzing kind. Although I do like their songs. I don't even spazz over Eunhyuk or Jaejoong anymore. But I do want to attend their concerts sometime. It'll be so fun. Oh oh, I have like three idols now. 1st, Eunhyuk. 2nd, Jaejoong. 3rd, WuYiFan. There's Taeyeon too. And badass Heechul who breaks all the rules in the world. Hopefully, there're more people who're worth it. Because they don't give a damn.)
I gotta go bathe right now.
Trecia gotta go bathe,
rushing to the bathroom,
bye! ^ ^
Trecia is back again. I've finally decided what I want to do with my uncertain boring dull life. Because of certain issues and deep deep thoughts that jolted me out of my delimma. Certain issues that cannot be spoken of (it isn't anything bad and it doesn't even concern me). It made me think a lot.
If I remain stubborn and choose to live life the stubborn way I want to, which includes breaking hearts by leaving my parents (thank god I don't have silbings, lesser hearts to break), my cousins, aunts and just, family members. I don't possibly live past that. There are people around who loves me and wants the best for me. To live comfortably, happily and safely. Yes, thanks for their love. (they don't always show it but you know it's always there. Somewhere.)
So, I have thought it through! (not that my previous choice of live was a bad one). I can just live that life in my next life, or leave it to someone else to live it for me. (maybe after I reincarnate as someone stronger, tougher) Why am I being so ambiguous? Hah, you'll never know. No one knows my dream.
Yes, this is about my dream. The dream that I had since I was 12? Or was it 10? I'm giving it up. It's kind of sad. Cause this dream has followed me through my puberty (horrible puberty) and almost a decade already. I gave it up. I know, people always say to follow their dreams no matter what. Your dreams are most important. Dreams are what defines a person. Point is, well, I don't know, if you give up on your dream, what makes you now? Lesser a person? I really don't know my point.
Perhaps, I might be having these thoughts on impulse again. No one actually wants to give up on their dreams, just like that. I mean, I always despise people who don't know dreams. People who don't know what they wanna do when they grow up. For me, I always lie. When I was a kid, I always lie when others ask me what I wanna be when I grow up. I wasn't brave enough to admit it. I was afraid of mockery. Because my dream, isn't all that realistic. (to certain people). Anyway, I'm turning my dream into a hobby now. So, all is well. At least, I know I won't stop doing the things that makes me smile, frustrated, annoyed, laugh and feel carefree. Yes, I won't ever stop.
I'll live better from now on. Because life is fragile and short. This much I know. I'll study harder. Work harder. Try harder to find an awesome boyfriend. (because I need a tight hug sometimes). I don't know if I will ever marry and have children, cause I'm scared of commitment (not really, it's just the not being a good wife part) and the pain of labor. Yeah, all is scary. I'm scared. (as much as I don't wanna admit).
What was the point of this post again? (Everytime I pour my heart out, I forgot my main point). Uh... okay. That's all, I guess.
Trecia is a better person now! This deserves a celebration I think... Maybe not.
Besides happy things and sudden enlightenment in my life... A close friend is going through distress right now. I'm gonna be there to... uh... be her shoulder and spam her with warm hugs. Yeah, that's right.
In the past, stupid me don't know how to keep people by my side. Honestly, I lost contact with too many people who mattered to me. What was I even thinking? Maybe I miss them, maybe I don't. But they were all people who once brought smiles to me. Made me laughed. Made me happy. Yeah, good memory. But maybe they weren't meant to be in my life. I mean, a tiny few people, I didn't make enough effort to keep them, but they're still here. I'm so blessed. So, thank you for staying. It meant so much to me. I'll try harder. Promise.
What was I saying again? Oh yes. I'll be there! Don't worry about me leaving! We promised to be there till we're tai tai enjoying afternoon tea and bridesmaid and enjoying Friday nights together and all the fun things. Yup. I can't wait. It sounds fun and I'm excited already. (Stop being mushy, Trecia! Since when are you such a softie?!)
To end it, thank you for all who stayed by me. Friends who made me laugh- If I act cute in front of you, then yes, you're a close friend. Not just any friend. I hate acting cute. (although people say I have the face).
Family members- Cousins who annoy me and I annoy. BEST. My aunt who I leeched off of whenever I stayed over. Hehe. Another aunt who always did my hair for free. (I totally love my hair now. It's so smooth.) Just everyone who loves me. I love you back. Really. I'm so glad I finally got time to attend all their bday parties. Thank god to graduating! I never attended any of my cousins' bdays in the past. I was always too occupied with studies and I couldn't leave. Exams, tests, sch days. When it's holidays, June, Dec, March, no one have their bdays there. How unlucky. So, I'm fortunate like that. Hahahahah~
Why am I all rainbows and unicorns today?
On a side note, I wanna go on a date. No, I'm not desperate. I just want to have fun. Yes, with like a boy who makes me all butterflies and roller coaster inside. I wanna watch a horror movie together and throw popcorn around cause we're scared. Play Wii and end up shoving each other cause we both want to win. Walk around the streets randomly eating ice cream. Okay, I'm thinking too much. I blame it on tumblr. They always post this kinda nonsense. Pff.
Oh..
Please respect Wu Yi Fan's decisions. Whatever they are. He has the right to choose what he wants in life. If he thinks it's best for him, then support him. Don't bash or curse him. Because you'll never know why he made his decisions that way. Because you'll never know his story. So, all you can do is to silently support him and his choices. He has that right, at the very least. Because no one is in charge of him except for himself. Not the fans. Not the company. Not his family. Not exo. If he wants to go, then let him go. You can't do anything about it. He is his own person.
People let go because they want better in life. Expect better things. You should be happy for him. And for the record, Wu Yi Fan doesn't need anyone's bullsh*t. He is human too. Feel for him and wear his shoes. If his health condition is real, let him rest if you don't want him to collapse. You know how terrible it feels when you fall sick. So just rest your case.
(Honestly, I'm not into Kpop anymore... Like not the spazzing kind. Although I do like their songs. I don't even spazz over Eunhyuk or Jaejoong anymore. But I do want to attend their concerts sometime. It'll be so fun. Oh oh, I have like three idols now. 1st, Eunhyuk. 2nd, Jaejoong. 3rd, WuYiFan. There's Taeyeon too. And badass Heechul who breaks all the rules in the world. Hopefully, there're more people who're worth it. Because they don't give a damn.)
I gotta go bathe right now.
Trecia gotta go bathe,
rushing to the bathroom,
bye! ^ ^
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