Hey hey to the world,

Trecia is back again. I've finally decided what I want to do with my uncertain boring dull life. Because of certain issues and deep deep thoughts that jolted me out of my delimma. Certain issues that cannot be spoken of (it isn't anything bad and it doesn't even concern me). It made me think a lot.

If I remain stubborn and choose to live life the stubborn way I want to, which includes breaking hearts by leaving my parents (thank god I don't have silbings, lesser hearts to break), my cousins, aunts and just, family members. I don't possibly live past that. There are people around who loves me and wants the best for me. To live comfortably, happily and safely. Yes, thanks for their love. (they don't always show it but you know it's always there. Somewhere.)

So, I have thought it through! (not that my previous choice of live was a bad one). I can just live that life in my next life, or leave it to someone else to live it for me. (maybe after I reincarnate as someone stronger, tougher) Why am I being so ambiguous? Hah, you'll never know. No one knows my dream.

Yes, this is about my dream. The dream that I had since I was 12? Or was it 10? I'm giving it up. It's kind of sad. Cause this dream has followed me through my puberty (horrible puberty) and almost a decade already. I gave it up. I know, people always say to follow their dreams no matter what. Your dreams are most important. Dreams are what defines a person. Point is, well, I don't know, if you give up on your dream, what makes you now? Lesser a person? I really don't know my point.

Perhaps, I might be having these thoughts on impulse again. No one actually wants to give up on their dreams, just like that. I mean, I always despise people who don't know dreams. People who don't know what they wanna do when they grow up. For me, I always lie. When I was a kid, I always lie when others ask me what I wanna be when I grow up. I wasn't brave enough to admit it. I was afraid of mockery. Because my dream, isn't all that realistic. (to certain people). Anyway, I'm turning my dream into a hobby now. So, all is well. At least, I know I won't stop doing the things that makes me smile, frustrated, annoyed, laugh and feel carefree. Yes, I won't ever stop.

I'll live better from now on. Because life is fragile and short. This much I know. I'll study harder. Work harder. Try harder to find an awesome boyfriend. (because I need a tight hug sometimes). I don't know if I will ever marry and have children, cause I'm scared of commitment (not really, it's just the not being a good wife part) and the pain of labor. Yeah, all is scary. I'm scared. (as much as I don't wanna admit).

What was the point of this post again? (Everytime I pour my heart out, I forgot my main point). Uh... okay. That's all, I guess.
Trecia is a better person now! This deserves a celebration I think... Maybe not.

Besides happy things and sudden enlightenment in my life... A close friend is going through distress right now. I'm gonna be there to... uh... be her shoulder and spam her with warm hugs. Yeah, that's right.

In the past, stupid me don't know how to keep people by my side. Honestly, I lost contact with too many people who mattered to me. What was I even thinking? Maybe I miss them, maybe I don't. But they were all people who once brought smiles to me. Made me laughed. Made me happy. Yeah, good memory. But maybe they weren't meant to be in my life. I mean, a tiny few people, I didn't make enough effort to keep them, but they're still here. I'm so blessed. So, thank you for staying. It meant so much to me. I'll try harder. Promise.

What was I saying again? Oh  yes. I'll be there! Don't worry about me leaving! We promised to be there till we're tai tai enjoying afternoon tea and bridesmaid and enjoying Friday nights together and all the fun things. Yup. I can't wait. It sounds fun and I'm excited already. (Stop being mushy, Trecia! Since when are you such a softie?!)

To end it, thank you for all who stayed by me. Friends who made me laugh- If I act cute in front of you, then yes, you're a close friend. Not just any friend. I hate acting cute. (although people say I have the face).

Family members- Cousins who annoy me and I annoy. BEST. My aunt who I leeched off of whenever I stayed over. Hehe. Another aunt who always did my hair for free. (I totally love my hair now. It's so smooth.) Just everyone who loves me. I love you back. Really. I'm so glad I finally got time to attend all their bday parties. Thank god to graduating! I never attended any of my cousins' bdays in the past. I was always too occupied with studies and I couldn't leave. Exams, tests, sch days. When it's holidays, June, Dec, March, no one have their bdays there. How unlucky. So, I'm fortunate like that. Hahahahah~

Why am I all rainbows and unicorns today?

On a side note, I wanna go on a date. No, I'm not desperate. I just want to have fun. Yes, with like a boy who makes me all butterflies and roller coaster inside. I wanna watch a horror movie together and throw popcorn around cause we're scared. Play Wii and end up shoving each other cause we both want to win. Walk around the streets randomly eating ice cream. Okay, I'm thinking too much. I blame it on tumblr. They always post this kinda nonsense. Pff.

Oh..

Please respect Wu Yi Fan's decisions. Whatever they are. He has the right to choose what he wants in life. If he thinks it's best for him, then support him. Don't bash or curse him. Because you'll never know why he made his decisions that way. Because you'll never know his story. So, all you can do is to silently support him and his choices. He has that right, at the very least. Because no one is in charge of him except for himself. Not the fans. Not the company. Not his family. Not exo. If he wants to go, then let him go. You can't do anything about it. He is his own person.

People let go because they want better in life. Expect better things. You should be happy for him. And for the record, Wu Yi Fan doesn't need anyone's bullsh*t. He is human too. Feel for him and wear his shoes. If his health condition is real, let him rest if you don't want him to collapse. You know how terrible it feels when you fall sick. So just rest your case.

(Honestly, I'm not into Kpop anymore... Like not the spazzing kind. Although I do like their songs. I don't even spazz over Eunhyuk or Jaejoong anymore. But I do want to attend their concerts sometime. It'll be so fun. Oh oh, I have like three idols now. 1st, Eunhyuk. 2nd, Jaejoong. 3rd, WuYiFan. There's Taeyeon too. And badass Heechul who breaks all the rules in the world. Hopefully, there're more people who're worth it. Because they don't give a damn.)

I gotta go bathe right now.

Trecia gotta go bathe,
rushing to the bathroom,
bye! ^ ^