I'm insane. I'm childish. I'm mad. I'm depressed. I'm a joy. I'm optimistic. I'm sarcastic. I'm narssistic. I'm pessimistic. I'm everything I am not and everything I am.
I need people to stop driving me mad. They need to just shut up. Just open their eyes. Just stop talking. Stop being such a fool. And stop thinking they're always right.
I don't need people to put me down. I don't need the extra attention. I don't need reminders. I don't need senseless words. I just need to be understood. To be appreciated.
That's all I want.
I hate it when people ignore me. I hate it when they get mad. I hate it more when I don't know why they're mad at me. I detest the feeling of feeling small and vulnerable. I don't like to whine and use cute words just to ask for forgiveness. I don't like being the one who always gives in. I don't want to give in when I don't think I'm in the wrong. I hate it when people try to tell me what to do. I hate it when my actions and words are being restricted.
I hate it that I have to pretend to be okay when all I wanted to do was to sulk and mope around. I hate it when I smile so easily when I'm mad. I hate it when they think everything's okay just because I stopped looking angry. I hate it when I actually care.
The people who drive me nuts are no good for me. Yet, they are those who I care about most. This is unfair. I want to drive them crazy as much as they do to me. I want them to suffer and feel what I'm feeling.
I'm not obliged to anything I don't want to do or feel. And it shall remain this way.
I just hope that they'll understand me and stop driving me crazy.
I'm insane enough. I just wanna be myself.
Saturday, December 20, 2014
Saturday, December 6, 2014
For the first time in forever~
Why that title?
Hah. I'm just excited. And it's not even about me /inserts nonstop giggles
My bestie is finally living life as a normal girl. Yes, dating and flirting, all that stuff. I think I'm more excited than her. Glad she met a great guy. Well, he seems like a pretty good guy as far. I only know him for a day anyway. Don't judge, Trecia. No judging, yet. /insert more giggles.
AFA 2014 is tomorrow and I have business law tutorial first thing in the morning. I feel like skipping... but no. I shall be a diligent student. Actually, I'm more scared that I don't understand the concept cause in university, you're left alone to die unless you make some pretty smart friends. Yeah.
So, no skipping of classes unless I want to fail. Hnn. I'm worried for my assignment grades. Didn't think I did too well. Maybe I'll only get a credit... Well... There goes my hopes for the Dean's list. Distinction all the way~ hopefully.
Back to my bestie story... Can't reveal anything here. So... /giggles. Yeah. That's all I can do.
Okay, I got distracted. Got to sleep now.
Good night~!
^.^
Hah. I'm just excited. And it's not even about me /inserts nonstop giggles
My bestie is finally living life as a normal girl. Yes, dating and flirting, all that stuff. I think I'm more excited than her. Glad she met a great guy. Well, he seems like a pretty good guy as far. I only know him for a day anyway. Don't judge, Trecia. No judging, yet. /insert more giggles.
AFA 2014 is tomorrow and I have business law tutorial first thing in the morning. I feel like skipping... but no. I shall be a diligent student. Actually, I'm more scared that I don't understand the concept cause in university, you're left alone to die unless you make some pretty smart friends. Yeah.
So, no skipping of classes unless I want to fail. Hnn. I'm worried for my assignment grades. Didn't think I did too well. Maybe I'll only get a credit... Well... There goes my hopes for the Dean's list. Distinction all the way~ hopefully.
Back to my bestie story... Can't reveal anything here. So... /giggles. Yeah. That's all I can do.
Okay, I got distracted. Got to sleep now.
Good night~!
^.^
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