Woah~ New role model. Ailee is awesome!

http://tvxqfacts.tumblr.com/

That night, I tweeted Jae. Well, he didn't reply obviously. But he tweeted something that seems to reply me. Imagine my delight >-<
*Delusional fangirl mode*
Let's hope he remains dorky and silly forever. 
He always play sad/moody/pathetic/stern characters.
The movie better be silly! 
JiHyo~

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR STAYING UP WITH ME~
愛してる!
Komawoyo~
^-^
*laugh hysterically*

Super tired today! Maybe cause I woke up too early! 8am in school plus a shower. Hah. Poly life. Whoever said it was easy?! Cheat my feelings~! >0<

And it happen to come out like this.. HMM.I feel funny. I like my left eye. Yes, there's a difference. Damn the eyelid. Hah

Self cam.. hmm colour's a little off.. EYEBAGS! AHHHHHH~
:O My bed's a mess.. ehehehe
FT Island- Severely
(My bed is SEVERELY messy) HAHA =_= I'm so.. blehhh

I will.. STUDY NOW.
And charge my camera at 11pm..
Someone please remind me?
>-< How to?
Wahahaha the two pretties~ xD
Ahh my long side fringe. I like my bangs.

“The important thing is to not senselessly go through today or any other day.
Every encounter should be treasured. Do not be afraid to fail.
If you have the interest, then go on and take the challenge.
If there is a continuous achievement everyday, you will be able to
discover your own dream for sure.” - Jung Yunho

AWW~ You can have mine!! *gladly donates*
HMM. Story of my life.. NONE. No life.
Projects after projects. Assignments. Datelines. Tests.
Oh gosh, when will all this end? WHEN~?! 
Stress. I can' even go KL with my cousins.
And Wookie(Violet, my Suju fangirl cousin that likes RyeoWook) is going to watch SM's I AM.
Well.. I don't support SME anymore. They're scammers.. But.. It doesn't hurt to watch it right? Heard the tickets are super expensive too. Like $20plus? Change it to RM.. WOAH. $40 for a movie?! NO WAY! O_o  Bloody hell  :X
And then, mummy so nicely cut out a newspaper article of Suju for me. Haha So sweet and cute. BUT. Eunhyuk. That stupid monkey.. Got chocolate abs now. AND. He showed it on SS4 Encore Concert! Why are all my biases 'flashers'? JaeJoong- Famous 'exhibitionst'. Eunhyuk- Turning into one too. His best friend, Junsu- Already one in Tarantallegra. Seriously. Changmin- My 'innocent' maknae. Please. Forget it. I shall just idolize myself. End of story. *narcissism*  

So much angst this weekend.
I'm tearing over stupid reasons like a story..
Gosh, stop it, Trecia.
Oh. If anyone notice, my name is TRECIA.
Not Tricia. Or Trisha. So not attractive.
Although Trecia was supposedly a mistake, but I love it~

Dr jin timeslip is out! ^-^
Watch it everyone! Time traveling like rooftop prince.
haha why so similar?
I hope yoochun doesnt film anymore dramas as of now. He needs to sleep.
In the last few episodes, his eyebags are so dark, make up couldn't cover.

I went to Singapore Expo IT fair yesterday to get my lousy tablet a cover. Couldn't find. Everyone sold Ipad covers. How bias. Haha Then, we(mum&I) went to the back of the fair, where there were things unrelated to IT. I managed to buy a new pair of specs there. It looks like..

I can't find a similar image anywhere!

Anyway, beside the shop, there were some hair care and body slimming stalls. And beside them, were some bag stalls. Mummy wanted to look at bags, so we went closer. Then, WOAH. The salesmen, like 3, starting talking and bombarding us. *overwhelmed* My mum was like ''yeah yeah, I know about it. I've heard." We went to the bag stalls. THEN. Very idiot of us, we turned another round and ended up at the crazy salesmen stall again. This uncle started bombarding his intro and products and service, I ignored him, of course. But this younger salesman behind him was undoubtedly, creepy and scary. His stare was just piercing, burnt a hole in me. Okay, first, he was quite cute looking for a salesman, so I looked at him. Like a passing glance, you know, like acknowledging a person. But he was blatantly staring at me. So awkward, so I turned away. When the older salesman was 'pushed' away by my mum, he came and started talking. Blah blah blah. Didnt hear what he said, he tried to push the flyer to me. *!!!* It was for hair care. Hello, Mr enthusiatic salesman, my hair is fine. Give it to my mum, will you? 

And my conclusion, flashback a little.

When I was trying my glasses, I was in front of their stall. The uncle there kept insisting on this glasses which was.. nice, but I didn't like the aura I gave out when I wore it. It made me look mature and stern. No no, don't like it very much. Then, I found this little geeky brown one. I tried it and LIKE it a lot. ^-^  It made me look..Well, it gave out a youthful and cute feel. And I thought I looked like Taeyeon a lot when I wore it. That kind of feel, if you didn't catch my meaning. *loves taeyeon* Yeah, perhaps that's why, the other guy kept staring. His eyes were huge and he wore this alien kind of contacts. Those kind that make your iris bigger? Yeah, it feels like an alien is watching you. I feel funny, like I was the weirdo. So..  :/

ANYWAY. I let down my hair, had it tied before I tried glasses. It curled up at the sides, which was Taeyeon's hairstyle in Gee promotions. We went to the TV bidding bid, this person stared at me and said Girl's generation. My reaction? Glance and walk away awkwardly. How was I supposed to react? Ahh.. stupid hair! But I do like Taeyeon. Any resemblance to her was.. an honor? Haha Maybe he thought I looked like someone else, like Sunny *eww* or.. I don't know. Hah! Whatever. Shall spam a little~ 

Spam!

Well.. I don't want to look like her. I just want her vocal abilities. 

I'm such a PABO. I cried worse than ParkHa. Omg.
*wipe tears*
Why does it have to be so depressing~?
I can totally act in crying shows..
*cries some more*
T-T

Looking weak is bad presentation for a leader.
This is why I have to look strong and undefeated.
People think I am fortunate to be in such a position.
I just chose to be. Expectations can get really high.
Being weak is not an option.
-JungYunHo

Gonna die soon~ All this work & datelines are killing everyone! Why do the tutors clam everything within two weeks? Even my mum ask why they can't extend the datelines. *face palm*
But whatever. I am done! >o<
Not exactly happy.. I still have FEM research to do. Is today FEM day or what? *rolls eyes* So annoying. Ahhhh. Look at my face! Fatigue. So obvious. Anymore than this I'll have to start putting make up. Wait. Does BBCream count? It does a great job covering my dark circles though.. HMM. Okay. Anymore than this I'll need powder! And concealer! And.. paint? My brain is obviously not working anymore. I need to print my assignment! Oh my.. 
Got to go~ 
Rest well everyone. And good morning ^-^

Let's all be thankful and happy! ^-^
Being grateful and light hearted isn't that hard, since we're all still young.
Apart from studies, what can we be so bothered about anyway?
:) So let's always keep the faith. The faith that you'll be able to make it through.
The faith that you will reach your dreams. 
Let's not forget that in the midst of all this mess.
And of course, always keep the faith for Cassies. I'm supporting everyone!
Since forever. 
Sidenote: Not a Cassie or ELF. Belongs to no fan club. 
Good night!

I am so tired! And I missed my alarms this morning. Yes, alarmS. I set two alarms. And I missed both! Guess my brain and body disagreed with each other when I said I only needed 7 hours of sleep. It needed 8 or 9hours actually. Haha BUT. I was still on time for my lecture. How awesome am I? Really. HAHA VERY~


Okay. So today's trip to Sentosa is really.. Sentosa is such an 'expandable' place. Like.. it's opening up a lot of new attractions end of this year and they're all pretty much exciting. Interesting. Lots of people will come, I'm sure. Who am I to say this anyway? Obviously people will come! If not, they won't build it! Haha *states the obvious*


The guide, Louis, is nice. He's an TP graduate too. Now.. he's a manager in charge of interns. Well.. That isn't exactly the best job in the world. Except that managing the hotel HR and operations is pretty cool, in a way. Trust me, I've worked part time for MICE during the holidays. Whatever you do, when you join RWS, do not join their banquet team! The managers there.. You have to work till 1am in the morning. Tear down and turn over is no joke. You need workers who are willing to stay for overtime. And most won't stay. Large event banquets always end late. Turning over will take at least 2hours and it'll be 2am. Trust me, I tried overtime. 2am! I reached home at 3.30am! It was so hardcore. Guess that's why.. Everything seem so.. small case to me now. I tried 3.30am. Doing work till 1am.. Nah, no biggie, really. Haha *arrogant*


But it was also that hardcore period that I slimmed down A LOT. Too much, in fact. I mean, don't get me wrong, I don't even need to slim down. I'm already too skinny. With that much weight I've lost that time, I can't seem to gain it back now. Sigh. The only place that seemed to be gaining weight is my face and my stomach. Rest the case, for now. Worry next time.


One time I have to say, nth to do with Sentosa anymore. It's more of my personal life story.
I hate it, well, dislike a lot, to put it in nicer terms- People who doesn't appreciate. Life isn't that bad you know. Unless you're 30 and cant find a job, or you lost your whole family, or you have depression, or you.. You get what I mean. A well, healthy, alive and kicking person, shouldn't have that much complains. As a person, you shouldn't be that pessimistic too! I mean, do you have problems like I do? Do you have my problems to deal with? Do you have the CEOs problems to deal with? Or the president? Or your friends? Or your family members? Or some homeless kid's problem? 


NO. You only have your own problem to deal with, and to me, your problems are NONE/INVALID compared to many others. Some people even have to worry about their next meal. But you don't have to. So how hard can life be for you, for you to keep whining, complaining and grumbling like that? Being optimistic isn't that difficult! Just.. If you have nothing good to say, then don't say anything. Heard it before have you? I'm sure you did. 


If you're in a bad mood, well, yes, share it with someone, smile and get over it. Trust me, complaining the whole day will not get you anywhere. Worse, it will dampen others' mood. It happened a lot recently. I am..yeah, me, forever in a good mood, most of the time. Then, grumpily comes a grumpy/moody person, showing me unnecessary bad attitude, speaking words that none deserves- THAT WAS REALLY A MOOD SPOILER. One thing I really hate is a person being rude to innocent others. Did he do anything bad to you? No. Then why that attitude? If you are in his shoes, would you want to be treated like that? No? Then why do it? The feeling sucks, you know. To talk to someone nicely, only to be replied with a curt answer. It's like asking for a cold glass of coke, only to have the waitress pour it onto your face. That kind of feeling, you feel wronged, maligned, upset. Don't do it please. It does no good to others.


I've said this before- Being true to yourself before being true to others = Being trustworthy before getting trusted.   I mean it. You cannot continue your life like this. You need to find yourself. Being like this.. It will only last you this long. It wouldn't go on forever, you know this right? One lie to cover another. How many lies can you create? You'll be living a lie. No one can live a lie. NO ONE CAN. If your whole life is a lie, you have no purpose. Even if you keep something in for a long time, you will have to come clean someday. One day, you will not be able to hide it. One day, you will realise you have nothing. How would you live your life then?


"Being a person that never gets angry even when the joke was carried too far. Being a person who empathizes and bears every little sensitive feeling a human can possibly feel. Being a person who forgives and forgets like breathing in oxygen everyday. Being a person who never gives up on himself even when all hope is deemed lost. Being a person who laughs with others even when others are laughing at him. Being a person who cries over something instead of everything and nothing. Being a person who manages himself well and never fails to always present a positive image. Being a person who is so honest, it becomes a joke when he lies. Being a person who works so hard, it is a privilege to even sleep. Being a person who is thankful for every little thing ever done, he appreciates. Being a person who is so polite even close friends could not bear. Being a person who is respected by others, his fall is applauded. That's the person I want to be. How about you?''  -Trecia


Think about it. 

Good night all.

Adults say, children don't understand parents. They always think parents are naggy, irritating, controlling etc. Well, children are bad for thinking this way. But, there has to something done in order for them to feel this way right? I mean, we do not accuse someone for being a thief if that person did not steal anything. There has to be a reason.

I don't mean that parents are at fault too. They have their own ways of disciplining their kids and that's their business. But, once their kids grow up.. Things change.

Basically, this happened to me. So I can't put a comment on it.

School work. Projects. Assignments.

We can't sleep early.

Trust me, I want to sleep early. In fact, I want to sleep for the whole day if I can.

But I can't. SADLY. So.. we do want to sleep early. Burning midnight oil and waking up in the early mornings are not a joke. Especially when you used up too much brain cells the previous night, worse. You'll just become a zombie the next day. Walking around aimlessly, talking lifelessly, yawning. It's normal. I've seen many signs. Haha

Really. If school doesn't exist, we'll be happier people. Stress free. Carefree. PLAY PLAY PLAY. Hurray~! That's the life everyone wants. SADLY. Not going to happen. Being in school is tough. You got to juggle your time. Social life, school tasks, relationship, meal time, leisure time, CCAs. WOAH, a great pile. A big mess. Not a joke.

So.. I would really appreciate it, if I don't get scolded/screamed at for staying up late. I have work to do. Seriously. Even if I don't, I will not sleep at 10pm. It is not within my lifestyle anymore. 7 hours of sleep is enough for me. If it goes up to 9 or even 8 hours, I'll get more tired when I wake up. So I really can't sleep for too long! If I am free, it's leisure time. Quite obviously. Let me do my own things, for goodness sake! It's not everyday I can do that. I can't live a typical Singaporean/Asia life working without play. I need to play! Leisure is just.. IMPORTANT to me. 

And I absolutely can't immediately start doing work after I come home from school or wherever. I need a little break first. So if I start listening to music or watch videos, let me be. I am just having a little break. Anyway, I don't see a problem with the process. Not like it really matters to most people. As long as I get my grades, that's all it counts. Reality check: Even if you put in your utmost effort but still got a lousy grade, people will think you didn't put in any effort. So why bother? Just.. I don't know what to say. Focus on end result? Sounds kind of wrong also..

Damn..What did I just do? Tweet Jae saying Good night and then telling him not to frown cause it doesn't look cool. He'll hate me for life. But it's a good suggestion.. O-O 

Frowing is bad for health. I mean it! Be happy and smile~! I shall teach him how to be optimistic! But he'll need to follow me first.. Eh wait. Since he didn't follow me, my tweet won't appear on his wall! Right? *confused* Seems quite true.. Aww man. Not fun anymore! 

Another song of Xia in Tarantallegra. I love this song. The chorus has no lyrics. It's like you can insert whatever lyrics you want in there. Whatever you want to express. So.. deep. His voice is so soothing. Voice of Korea never disappoints, as usual. I'm respecting him more now. He always seem like a joke in the past. Apparently, Xia's all grown up now.



The weather is so warm recently. Hopefully, I will survive tomorrow's Botanic Garden trip. The whole garden.. It's no joke. I'm having stomach cramps. Really, being a girl is no joke. You get all the crap. I must survive tomorrow! *determined* Arghh my phone's so far! I can't reach it~  >o<

Continuation of things to give up:

6. Give up complaining

7. Give up the luxury of criticism

8. Give up your need to impress others

9. Give up your resistance to change

“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell

10. Give up labels

The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer

(they do make sense right?)
Good night everyone! ^-^ Have sweet dreams! :)

Naega che chalaga~
Okay, nothing big actually. I just finished my AM project! ^-^
AND. Only 3% plagiarism matches. Wahaha For some really unimportant lines.
I hope I didn't do it wrongly. I HOPE.
Now, it's time to turn in and snore! hehe
I'm tired beat. But nvm! I have the mental strength! I have not done accouting tutorial! *smacks myself* And I can't find FEM tutorial materials.. Is there no tutorial tmr? OH YEAH. 29th May there's an accounting class test. Gosh, TIME TIME TIME. NO TIME! *screams*
I love my nails~ They're so.. ME. Haha


"Because in this lifetime, life is so tough. Let's all try again in the next lifetime." 
-Trecia
A tretre production. haha I spoilt my brains. 

WHY MUST I OPEN THIS IN THE MIDDLE OF MY ASSIGNMENT!?
WHY~! *kicks myself*
Nostalgia. Longing. They really shine when 5.
Tho I always say, we should move on.
This.. It's hard.
I have a feeling, only those who understands Cassies, are the SS501 fans.
Fighting together, I guess. 

Jaejoong composed this song. EVERYTHING. Junsu sang it. I love it. Actually, I like the whole Tarantallegra album. So many self-composed. Honest lyrics. I like. Anyway, ENJOY. I will share other songs next time. The reason why I always posted songs with translations is because I want people to focus on the LYRICS. It's so deep. But it doesn't mean you can't focus on the melody though. I just felt that lyrics are the most important part in a song. Alot of rookies have awesome melodies, but their lyrics are.. YOU GET WHAT I MEAN. Lyrics must have meaning!! ^0^

YAY!! Dr Jin OST coming out on 25th May! Go listen to it! ^-^
I had manicure yesterday at SAF. The lady was super nice! Her skills are good as well! Her designs are all intricate and hard to draw! Like she could draw a little scene of cherry blossom, some weird Bloody Mary face, a ghostly face, butterfly wings ETC. It does not sound very impressive. BUT IT IS. And what she puts on her template, she does it exactly the same as what she paints for you. If not, nicer. Cause she's that nice and patient, she twits it a little for you to fit your nail shape or maybe your skin colour. Awesome? AND she gives free hand massages! And talk crap with you! HAHA Rina and I sure had fun talking to her. She's so nice, I swear. SO! If you're a girl and you're going to SAF, go visit her booth! Find something you like and have her paint it for you! You can even book a timeslot with her so you don't have to wait! Aahha Why am I promoting for her? haha She will be working over at Jedric Salon starting from 28th May. 


Yesterday, we went HIT&RUN. I can't talk about how awesome the SAF is until tomorrow is over. But let's just say we meet an ex-TP student there and had a little chat. He was so jealous we had Mac and Subway in campus now. Haha And the shirt printing guy was so nice and shockingly TALL. He was bending down the whole time so we couldn't see his built. But when he stood up beside me. WOAH~! I only reached his.. shoulder? As in, OKAY. Let's just say he could be 180+ in height. Because he looks way taller than Rina as well. HAHA could you guess what we were doing? I will not reveal now~ Because it's dangerous. But you know what, HIT&RUN's the last day yesterday. So.. yeah. Haha Shall not reveal. In case.. There're many competitive people around here and we'll never know what will happen.. I've always said this : "Humans are evil." I'm an evil person too. Just that I chose to be kind. >0<


TIME TO GO DO MY ASSIGNMENT! I need to structure everything into proper sentences. But first, let me get my pictures.. HEHEHE

A little motivation for you all before I go ^0^

Until I have reached the top,


I will not cry.


Once I have reached the top,


I will cry my heart out.


For a day.


Once.


-JungYunho


Nostalgia, nope. Everyone's doing well. But we.. need these little motivations to keep going right? ^^
If they can go so far, no one permits we can. Isn't that right?
Okay, gosh, I'm 18 and I feel like a old woman. I shall stop this.
BUT. Let's all be inspired and work hard! Don't forget to play as well! ^-^ Have a nice day! It's so sunny today..

http://poshism.com/user/647/1804/

My cousin! Isn't he cool? HAHA ^-^
I only knew he had a good fashion sense. But this.. Is really.. I'm quite speechless. I mean, it fits with the trend nowadays. And I have to admit he does look good. Pretty much very geeky yet in style. Reminds me of JYJ NII. Don't you think so? HAHA With the shoes and the high socks. Well. I'm a proud older cousin. Only older by a year though. And we obviously grew up playing together. Before.. I got into Poly. Poly leaves me no time for any other things! Damnnn~  T-T

Anyway, please vote for him if you like his style! ^-^


I super like his shirt! Yesterday at Singapore Arts Festival, I saw a bag that has the same design as his shirt! Awesome. It was in shades of baby pink and baby blue. I WANT THAT BAG! But no.. I have too many bags already. I know it myself. Oh well, next time then.

So now, I'm gonna go bathe. Have lunch. Do a little work. Then go meet Maknae. We're going Bugis later! I want my toga dress! *sulks* I'll have to wait..

Things to give up to be happy: (credit purposefairy.com)

1. Give up your need to always be right

“Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?”

2. Give up your need for control

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.”

3. Give up on blame

4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk

“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” 

5. Give up your limiting beliefs

Spread your wings and fly!

(thought this was rather true and impactful)
We should all try it! 

Now we have..
Tiredness level: TRECIA.
*inserts snores*
Good night!

You cannot imagine how busy I am these days. Not to mention sleep deprived. I swear to my body, after next week, I will REST. PROPERLY. Tons of assignments to do, but tonight, NO. I can't even think straight. And that's the time when you're most creative. So the only thing I can do properly is blog. I can't even spell right now, you cannot imagine how many errors I made while typing. Once again, I'm glad I do proof reading.

First up, a follow up on my Jaejoong argument in the previous post. The author said he didn't win any awards and is only stuck at being co-actor. It came to me in the shower. He did actually got some popularity or top 10 new comer award after PTB. And he couldn't be lead actor, because he has a movie to film! How can a human juggle two major things at a time? I know I can't. And I am doing it now. AM and FEM individual proj, datelines are only 4 days apart. IMAGINE THAT. This is so time.. timeless? No.. Wrong usage but can't think of other words.

Then, JUNSU. This Xia person. Song- Totally awesome. So catchy, it's now a song I listen to every morning. Gives me energy and convinces myself I am independent and cool and confident and many other superior things. Mv- No objections. Invalid anyway, cause I just don't like the orange hair, 5secs girlJunsu and the female dancers. They were touching wrong places, hate it. Style- NO NO NO. The blonde hair one is alright. Haack, even the pink/maroon braided fringe thing looks cool. BUT! The bangs like the pic below, NO. He still looks good, I admit. BUT, no circle lens please, no thick eyeliner, no BANGS please, don't ever wear lace like that(i know it looks sexy BUT),don't leave your mouth hanging open like that in every photo of Tarantellegra. It makes you.. HyunA. YEAH. No offense to anyone Xia fans who loves him like this. I thought it was pretty bold and cool and pretty and feminine (yet masculine) and sexy. But.. YEAH. Point taken? You strive on your voice, but showing off your body.. Because.. others have nicer bodies than you do.. You just have a butt.(fans know what I mean). And.. You.. are switching the attention on your voice away. To visuals. Well, you're eye candy too. But visuals aren't your thing though. Although I do like dark themes like this and is pretty much addicted to vampires and werewolves and Death and.. YEAH. I have to give it to you for your album sales though. Surpassing LadyGaga and Bieber? That is so cool~! ^-^  Asian rules the chart. (no offence, that was just a statement). Junsu did it. Now, we just have to wait for a JYJ album. DARK THEME. Or.. cutesy innocent theme. Either works for me. 

Oh! Dr Jin's drama official poster! Jae is super tall! I mean.. If you compare to Yunho.. But compared to MinYoung who's tall for a girl.. He's TALL. She barely reached his shoulders. 

Suddenly, it clicked.
Eunhyuk was someone I wanted to be. Strong and forgiving.
Jaejoong was someone I am stuck at. Stubborn and free-spirited.
(Talking abt personality btw)
P.s Didn't mean Jae's stubborn. He's just on the weird side, that's all.

IT CLICKED. I figured for so long.

Inspiration. Now we're talking.
He improved so much! Listen to him!
My biases are all so.. *speechless*
Hehe HyukSu are both blonde. BFF forever.
PROUD PROUD PROUD. His high note!!
*motivated*

From another blog:  PITY JAEJOONG

I pity Jaejoong… Leaving TVXQ is the biggest mistake he has made. He loves being on stage but now he hardly has the chance to. He went through so much just to learn how to sing, but he barely releases new songs anymore. He acts now, but he couldn’t even win a popularity award (Yoochun won it), let alone a best new actor award. He used to be the most popular in Japan but now i doubt he can fair up to Yunho or Changmin’s levels of popularity. He used to be the most prominent/ recognizable member of TVXQ but now he is way behind and overshadowed by the rest of them. He used to have so many friends and yet now he is constantly alone. After the break, he is the least successful one out of the bunch and somehow, i have the feeling he is regretting making that decision. 

I am excited for Junsu’s solo but its shows how clearly ahead Junsu is compared to the other 2 music wise. I do think Jae never attending Elisabeth has something to do with him realizing this fact. Yoochun is way ahead acting wise while Jae did not even get to be the lead character. Yunho and Changmin, well, they showed people that they deserve the TVXQ’s name and fame, and were doing exceptionally well by their own. They made the decision that is best for them.

So that left Jae, the only one who still did not find his place. All his ventures so far are pretty halfhearted. He was the director of their tours, but frankly, many people including myself don’t think he did a good job with it. And apart from that 1 gymnast performance he helped out, there has not been any news since. He composed but his songs were not the best, apart from In Heaven. He attended some summits/functions but they are hardly called his own work. His voice is deteriorating (just see how heavily he breathed when singing during their recent fan meet), his looks too (I don’t want to get started on this). At this rate, Jaejoong will be the first of TVXQ to be forgotten, see the rate his fansites are being closed down?

S!b: People I know are either Jae biased/ JYJ fans or OT5. They either tell me I can’t doubt Jae or can’t compare among them coz they are “brothers” or he is still perfectly happy and I’m sick of it.

S!b: I tried voicing out once and got lashed at but I still want to put this somewhere so that people at least read it without prejudice. 

From me:

This might be a biased opinion but I found it quite true. Junsu is super successfully with his musicals and awards and even a blasting cool solo album. Yoochun has acted in 3dramas and found awards for 2 of it already. Jaejoong has.. Attended a president function which is quite cool.. Became a director for their tour, honestly I thought it was good, being a director isn't easy (you go try it) and it's his first time. He wrote In Heaven, totally awesome ballad, I love it so much. Filmed protect the boss, gosh he was so funny together with JiSung. Now he's filming DrJin and the movie. I can't say he's on the losing side in the industry cause a movie isn't small scale and he's the first to do it in JYJ. Dr Jin too, although he isn't a lead, he's still a pretty important character inside. Enough said. 

You know what, Cassies and everyone, let Jaejoong do whatever he wants. He knows his limits and schedules. He wants it, he will do it. He wants a break, he will get a break. Who cares if he doesn't seem so busy nowadays and hangs out with friends often? It's all good, he's living as a human again. Isn't that why he left SM in the first place? To be human. To reclaim his rights. He has done it and he succeed. Now, he just has to live his life the way he wants. He can even marry tomorrow because he CAN.(provided he finds himself a gf first). Cassies won't forget him. I won't.  If they do, they're not called Cassies. They're merely a fan. A normal fan. I wish him luck.

 But yeah, a spoiler, he does look like he aged a lot. It's his hairstyle, I can safely say. And make-up. Seriously. If you sleep for 3 hours a day, you smoke and you have to film all day long, you will look like shit. That I guarantee. I only study half a day, sleep for 6hours a day and play the rest of the time, and I look like shit. Think about the different man. It's huge. Obviously, he will not look good with such schedules. If you're thinking of comparing him with Junsu and Yoochun, I suggest you don't. Because Junsu's caked with make up nowadays, I can't even start on that. Yoochun's face is not flawless. If you watched RTP, you'll surely know. It's caked with powder too. I can see it. So, with a complexion like Jaejoong, you can only thank the gods. Cut him some slack. I'm totally speaking for him, I realised that myself. But really, THEY'RE ALL HUMANS. Sometimes, people are just too lazy to dress up or fix  their hair. It happened to me and I ignored people who didn't appreciate that. No matter what, you're you. Jaejoong is Jaejoong. Even if he turns ugly and grows a mustache one day, he's still Jaejoong, the man whose voice I loved so much , his awesome dress sense, the dry awkward humor and random moments. 

Enough said? Hehe Jaejoong wasn't even the person I admired and respected in the first place. I just find him awesomely cool and his VOICE is just.. WOW. The first was Suju's Eunhyuk, that guy is even more awesome. Personality-wise, I mean. But Jaejoong.. Is just so free-spirited. So.. me. 

Parting will never be sweet sorrow. 
The time to reunite. 
The longing. 
The wait
-JYJ of DBSK, HoMin of DBSK

Arghh~ My essay title was rejected! Really. Immigrant and talents. How boring is this? So standard. Reminds me of SS in Sec school. Gosh, can't they give us more interesting topics? I am begging the upper people. Use some creativity! Or we won't. 


And then.. I forgot. I know I'm so stressed up. Doing tut homework is stress. Researching is stress and time consuming. Doing covers is stress too cause of my unwell throat. Worrying about lack of sleep is more stress. Less than 7hours of sleep for 3 days already. I am working myself out. And, you know what, I passed by Bedok Reservior on the way home. I actually had the though of going jogging at night. I mean.. I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME FOR SLEEP. Oh my, brains cell, please come back.


ALSO. Silly me is just so insensitive. Words kill. How can I forget that? *bangs wall and suicide* But I don't sugarcoat. Either that, or it's sarcasm. Choose.
I'm just too free-spirited. I like my own ways. I chose my own principles, obviously. Sometimes, it just confuses me what I really want.
One minute it seemed right, the next it doesn't. Brain calls, go away, this time.


Maybe it's the stress getting to me. I know and I forget.


Impact. Huge. Healing time. None.
It bothers me. Things I can't reveal. Things I will regret. Things I can't control.
If the thought crosses my mind, does it means it's valid?

I don't have the heart to.. 

I do not sugarcoat my words

for they are useless in

reality. We should all

 face the truth with an open

 heart. Only then, we will

never lose the strength

and become stronger.

-ShimChangMin

Finally a change of blogskin! Haha It's black and pink this time. The colour combination is pretty cool. SO I USED IT! Thanks to the blog designer! :D

I feel so hardworking nowadays. I've been doing my tutorials and praticing my stuff like everyday. I'm gonna kill myself like that, I think. Soon. Haha And then, accounting tutorial, I missed out one page which is a whole question and I got my name 'black listed'. GREAT. To think I still feel so accomplished for doing my FEM tutorial. Pssh. What a scam. BAD RECORD already! And that accounting tutor.. Won't scold but so.. SCARY. his favourite question: "If you never do homework, will I scold?" *class answer yes. Some nod* No I will not scold you. The ball is in your game." Isn't it so creepy?! He seems like those kind of tutor that appears nice and lenient, but behind your back, he's gonna blacklist you for every wrong thing you do. Gee. That's very sly. BUT maybe he's not like that. This is just my nonsencical theory.

I want a puppy/rabbit/hamster/chinchilla/cat, hack even a few turtles. I think I desperately need a pet, or I'll start talking to walls or my posters or cut outs. Yes, that means being delusionsal and crazy. The more busy I get, the more attention I want? Haha Even my cat meowing to me when I get home would be nice. Although I heard that cats are possesive. They're your master not you're theirs. Haha Jaejoong owned by Jiji. And Junsu owed by Leo,Bakira and Tiger. Damn. How I wish I can rem school stuff this well too. Leo is cute! I want a cat species like Leo too! I need to get turtles. I already though of their names! So well prepared. Then I can feed them my unwanted veggies. Such a great idea right?

Toki, Taki, Teki.

Hehe Same initials as me!

Why am I comparing myself with turtles anyway?

Hah back to work~

如何して～!？

 Let's have his silly never-give-up fighting spirit! MONKEY D LUFFY.

:) All smiles tonight. I was so tired, I couldn't bring myself to do any schoolwork. Not even researching for my national museum background information. I will regret tomorrow. I know it. Frowns hard.
Anyway, yeah, the thing that I was all smiles about.. I managed to sing Twinkle alone. Although Taeyeon's high 'screaming' part were horrible and fuzzy, she's crazy, so I shall be excused for my crime. hehe ^-^ And I also recorded a few more decent covers. Which is awesome. Because my voice is hoarse these few days.. HMM I sounded like I'm bragging now. I will stop it. 
Windows movie maker sucks. It loads so slowly. Converting videos are hard T-T They take forever.
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Good news! Dr Jin timeslip teaser is out! Jae looks weird yet good in traditional Joseon clothes.. Or maybe it's just I'm not used to seeing him so out of style. If you know what I mean ^-^
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Tomorrow's mother's day right? I bought masks for my mum. Well.. half of them are actually for me. And I couldn't afford the super expensive mother's day set Etude house has. Masks, hand cream, facial cleanser and stuff like that. Packed in a nice pink box. It looks good. BUT. Did I mention I forgot to bring my wallet with me today? Gosh, I'm such a fail. I always forgot all the important things. I can forget my phone while my mp3 nevers leaves my side. Today, I bought a camera out (which I usually don't) and I forget my wallet. I have no brain. Luckily, Anne happen to be in the same area ans she passed me the money she owed me for months. Haha We always missed the dates. Well, whatever.
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Nightwalk was fun. Acting as a ghost sure is tiring as hell though. And some freshies are really.. ANNOYING. After they left the station, I was storming around. Infuriating.
But some were funny. One class made me laugh and I had to lie to them and said I was on a break. Haha Sorry, freshies. Because my face wasn't covered by my hair, so they could see my expressions. Then, they were moving so slowly, I pointed to the direction they were supposed to go to in a creepy ghostly way. They called me the traffic police!!! Well, first time I didn't laugh cause they were kinda noisy and irritating. But, they were nice people. And I was listening to their theory of the Mulan and Cinderalla and whoever, they were quite smart. I like. So when they bid me goodbye, literally 'Bye traffic police!!" I laughed. They laughed. And then I followed them to the stairs and told them that their Mulan theory was wrong. I'm such a kind ghost. Nightwalk wasn't that badly planned as I was told. I mean, my level was perfectly fine. Maybe the other levels were bad.. But hey, that was their first event, they deseved some credit and encouragement for it! SO, WELL DONE LRMIG! I hope everyone had fun too. Cause I know I did. Even made a few friends and found out that some people I don't recognise, knows me. What a surprise. They even recognise me by my lips. O-O 


みなさん、おやすみなさい！

The video of the lyrics..

!!!!!

What the hell did I just typed?!

The LYRICS of the VIDEO!! >-< 

Oh god, maybe I am really over working myself.

I was thinking of the video of Junsu's new ballad OST for RTP and then the lyrics of the song..

Then.. video of lyrics came out. *kills myself*

Anyway, the lyrics are so touching. Eh.. Wonderfully depressingly touching.

I mean, he cried while recording. That is something.

How I wish I was somewhat more sensitive. But not to his extend, of course.

I feel heartless suddenly..  :/

Or maybe I just have no idea how to express my emotions properly. 

Excuse me while I go cry. HAHAHA

As usual, voice of Korea. Rooftop prince OST. That voice.. *sighs*

A little Jaejoong spam.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Junsu's side profile taken by Jae.

 changmin is all grown up. Suddenly.. over 2years.

 No. Eunhyuk will never be almost the same height as Min. NEVER!

 BLONDE JUNSU. Is the like one of the most.. beautiful thing ever? Okay. He looks like a girl. In a good way. He got Jae's feel now. Woah~! Whoever said he was ugly last time? Maybe he suit the charisma thing better than the cute thing.. HMM. Oh! Junsu finally shows charisma after 9years of debut! You should had done this earlier man. Save yourself from all the teasings.

Haha the cover done by Jing and I last year. She finally uploaded it!
It doesn't sound strong and fantastic, but we're both improving! ^-^
This definitely isn't the best we could do anyway. hehe
*self praising*
But hey! Applause for the courage man! *claps*
^o^ Hope no one pukes..

Not a big fan of MBLAQ and I don't listen to their songs. But this MV is good. And the song's not bad too. ^-^ The storyline is so tragic.

I'm up early today! Don't know what to do.. Mom's room was so stuffy I like two bad dreams in a row

ToT  As much as I love Granny, I do want my room back! My room is precious.

First dream I can't rem, cause I was half way dreaming about some bad stuff, then mom pulled my blanket and said stuff I can't even rem. And I woke up. Did I mention I was a light sleeper? Yeah, I am. Unless I was dead tired, then I'll sleep like a log and even my alarm can't wake me up.

Second dream, very vague. Something about having betrayed, lied to and hurt. No idea by whom. It's just saddening. I woke up with tears in my eyes. Sad much.

Another thing

Why are ants so attracted to my laptop? There's nothing to eat here. Except to get killed by me 'cause they're being annoying. Imagine typing or reading, and then a little black thing starts running all over the screen or the keyboard. Hella annoying right? And the thing is, my keyboard.. *sighs* It has little gaps all over and it's kinda hollow underneath the bottom.. So the little black things can actually go under. I wonder how many are squashed as I'm typing now. Ridiculous creatures! Food on the table- ignore. Water in a cup- all goes swimming and then drowns. I don't get it. It doesn't seem legit. At all.

Anyway, good morning.

おはよございます! (self learn Jap is hard!) 

 This is a letter Maknae wrote for me during christmas gift part 2? I was supposed to post it long ago.. But I left it out by accident. Hehe Thanks maknae! ^-^ (the envelop is 可愛い!)

The avengers is awesome. Thor is so cool. And so is Captain American. Hawkeye. Iron man is kinda annoying at first. Hulk is hilarious somehow. Loki is plain dumb. The girl.. I forgot her name :/ 
Scarlett? 
THOR~  ^-^
 

I'm gonna start on my individual and group projects soon. Feel the stress? STRESS!
T-T I don't wanna die early..
The schedule's so tight. Man, I can't even bear the thought of having a break.
Can I do away with sleep?
It's late now and I'm still watching RTP.  And I'm done, finally.
Gosh. I don't have time. 
I talk like I am dying, but it feels as tho I really am.
For the next two weeks, let's survive.
I lost my touch in essays and reports already.
おやすみなさい!

Wow. Junsu's whole album is self composed. Except for the rooftop prince ost track, some helped by Junho, one composed by Jaejoong as a gift and some english composers. So cool. But why is the changed to Xia? I thought it was only the album name? There's no difference for Xiah and Xia anyway. Xiah is part of dbsk. Xia is solo. Make up your mind, Junsu. Or just stick to Junsu. Let's all be diplomatic. (is it even the correct usage of word? it just comes to mind like that)


Anyway, looking forward to the new album! The ost track is already awesome~

Something I saw at 9gag (god, I haven't been there for centuries)

Things you read during breakfast,

Newspaper

Book

Mail

Cereal box

Me, definitely, cereal box. Or even the bread wrapper. *face palm*

9gag is so funny.

Junsu's second teaser! The album's called Xia Tarantallegra. No idea what it means. But definitely inspired from Elizabeth. I can give up my hopes of CuteJunsu now. Apparently, he's all grown up. No more baby fats. Sobs. He's starting to get abs too. Sigh I'm not against it anyway. It's just.. Junsu Junsu.. Junsu should stick with being Junsu O-O

And Changmin.. Changmin misses his bandmates. I'm sure of it. If not, he wouldn't peep into Suju's rehearsal studio enviously. He wants more members. His old members, in fact. Yunho alone is not enough. I mean, if Yunho get tired and stop entertaining him, he still has the other members right? Like the eccentric Jae or hyper Su. But that was the past. So, I'm sure he misses them. Which is a good thing. But please don't ever join Suju. It'll spoil the dynamics. You won't fit in there! 

Eunhyuk takes alcoholic drinks now! Like finally. And gets drunk. Haha I wonder how much he drank to get drunk and be all cute. HMM. My biases are forever getting drunk and being cute (Jae/Hyuk). I wonder what the story would be. 

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Back to my life! Haha ^-^  After all the updates of.. ridiculously good looking guys. (yeah :/ )

Tomorrow morning, I have Ms Maggie sieow's lesson! 9am! *sigh* Let's hope no one will be late so she will not start scolding and screaming at us. I mean, first tutorial.. how bad can it get? even Ms JoanHo let us off. Even those who were late for more than 15mins. How kind ^-^ 

And she's pregnant! Delivering in a month! I actually like her as my care person! She looks like she cares enough and.. we can text her and say "Hi". She'll be happy to reply. Haha So cute!

And then.. AcadWriting was.. slow.. boring..dry. All we did was listen to the lecture.. Take a few notes. Did a few exercises. Well, the exercises were alright. Using a few million braincells is good. BUT. Just from thinking of a title for an essay, I think I used by half a billion already. Gosh. Cannot imagine how long I will take to think of the actual essay title for my assignment. It's 20% right? Or 30%? Oh my god. I feel like crying. Why is the percentage so high!? Oh. Group proj.. It's only 10% but I'm not looking forward to it. I mean.. Different people working together for an essay? I bet ideas will clash. I BET. But we'll see when the time comes. Do one at one go. (Is it the correct phrase?)

Somehow, talking abt those ridiculously good looking guys are more interesting. My life is boring. All I do is study.. Read a little 'One piece'. Check fb/twitter but update and tweet nothing. Do tutorials. Research. I mean, no one will care! Haha. *sarcastic laughter*

Maybe I shall think of what to wear tomorrow.. But then again, I don't care. I HAVE NO LIFE! >o<

Oh yeah. Thankyou KarSeng for the Pocky. It was so random yet so nice of you. Hehe. I feel so accomplished choosing him as my group member. He's really smart. Almost like a walking wiki. I wonder how he gets to know so much infor and actually manage to rem them. I must learn from him.

*devil inside speaks: And get information overload and die from brain explosion, yeah why not? And did you just typed 'many infor'?!*

Sigh.. Yes I did, devil. But no one will get so see it. Phew! So glad I proof read my stuff before posting. 


Warning for Rina: Please get well soon! It really bothers me that you can't talk like usual. And your weird-out-of-tune-strangled laughter is awful! I'm sorry.. But REALLY. Drink more water and get well. If not, don't speak! Wahaha~ ^-^  
Sincerely,
Trecia who wants to laugh at you but feels bad at the same time
:/

Oh! Has anyone seen the Monhyuk pictures yet?!

Sometimes I wonder why all my biases are so gay..

Well.. At least they're awesome when they perform.

*no more comments*

But if you have not seen them! TADAA~

(LOL! I searched for monhyuk and I got KangMinhyuk. I was like who the hell is that, he's quite cute. Then I realise he's in CNblue. I'm sorry, CNBlue. Lack of attention for you) 

Do I have permission to faint now? Like right now? 

At least shave your legs before  you get into that dress! *must unsee*

Faints~ His eyeliner and mascara looks well drawn though..

Haha I knew it was a punichment the minute I saw the pics. The things Suju does.. Cannot comprehen.

One year before..

One year later..
I think it's the hairstyle.. My 'aunty' hairstyle at home.
Or maybe it's the lighting problem. 
Blue nails~ lalala
I shall try my new pink one after this comes off.
Kang Gary is awesome.
>0< Bye!