Feelings.

Hi there,

Tonight, I'm here to talk about certain stuff regarding friendship.
This is not random because I've encountered this dilemma in my friendship with someone and I don't know how to solve it. Or do anything about it. Since some issues are kinda touchy and sensitive.

First off, friendship, according to my beliefs, is based on mutual trust and understanding. Almost like a relationship. But not so imtimate, physically. Both have emotional roller coaster rides and it depends on how you deal with it. For me, I'm pretty slack on matters like this. I let many things slide past and I'm not sensitive in such stuff. Maybe a little sentimental sometimes, but definitely not sensitive. I do reminisce on past friendships and maybe relationships and wonder why they didn't work out. But then again, if they do work out, perhaps I won't be meeting more awesome people in my life. It's kinda like fate, my close friend told me. It's all about fate and timing. I do agree, to a certain extent. It's true.

Not having enough trust in a friendship is just like... I can't think of any anology that makes sense. But if there's no trust, it's just sad isn't it? And this is the exact problem that keeps happening. I don't know what to think. Maybe it's sensitivity, a joke or simply lack of trust. We're all friends and we do things together. Be it altogether or separated. No one is supposed to feel left out. Because it works both ways. Sometimes, A hangs out with B more. Sometimes B talks to C more. It's all natural. We can't keep making excuses for ourselves.

Effort need to be made in order to keep in touch. To maintain this friendship. To continue creating episodes. If no one makes a move, then everything will be at a standstill. Time will not still though. Which means we will move forward and those who don't keep up will automatically be lagging behind. It is cruel. But hey, this is real life.

Although I say this, I don't want anyone to be left behind. Cause it's horrible.  At least I know that much. But if I keep making efforts that are ultimately going to be denied, then maybe one day, I will stop making such efforts. It is tiring to know that you're not being appreciated. And I absolutely hate being guilt tripped. I do feel sorry, but it doesn't necessarily mean I'm at fault. At least I tried. I did try, didn't I? People gave up trying because they start to think it's pointless. Please don't make me think that way. I don't want to... do such things. It ain't nice.

You have to make an effort and not wait for others.
No one is at fault. So don't make it anyone's fault.

Trecia is having a slight fever & it doesn't feel good,
have an early night everyone.
Night.

A picture from my graduation ceremony:
I'm out of college!
Which is the same as graduating from 12th grade in the states. (Two years later)
Singapore's education system is really too tedious and long winded.