So cute~! I'm all energized! ^-^
(And I'm a failure.. Others finished their assignment already.. Me.. Still at drafts)
What am I gonna do?!
BAKA BAKA BAKA TRECIA! Ahhh


The feeling after a short nap.. HAHA Big eye, small eye. Uneven eyes~

 I cut my fringe today! 
Well.. Here's a sneak peep? ^^
The lighting is good 

You know what, let JYJ be on Running Man. That'll become the most epic episode ever. 

Good day, good day. Today is a good day.
Bar tendering was fun with Anne. She's crazy. She's always crazy. To hyper.
I haven't spend so much time with her since Poly life started. It was great.
^-^


The day started great when I woke up to a good dream. It's been long since I had a dream. Dreamless nights. Ah, the horror. 
And then last night, I dream of my favourite pretty boy, Kim JaeJoong.
It was senseless. But it felt so real, it's awesome. 
There was a fan meet? Or some coincidence meeting of Kim JaeJoong on the streets. Fan swarmed and screaming happened. And then, he was talking to me. In korean. But main point, he was talking to me. Like we were close friends, or lovers or something quite close. Cause he looked like he was about to cry when he had to leave.
Alright. So, we were talking. He spoke in korean and I spoke in English. So it's like.. a duck talking to a chicken. Yeah.. Miraculously, we understood each other. There was like a voice in our head that translates the language. So we could communicate properly. (Guess that was the miracle part) He said something like ''gwenchana'' which means it's okay. Then I kept trying to tell him that I don't know Korean well. I think I said something like ''hangul mollaso hajiman..'' (I don't know korean but..) Then, he kept cutting me off by saying It's okay and smiling so nicely. It's like we're a couple separating,the feeling. Then, he just hugged me. xD  In my dreams, I can make out the smell of his perfume. HAHAHA It smells nice. And I wonder how I know how his perfume smells like.. I mean, I have never met him before. And I'm not even sure he wears perfume. (But all celebrities do, I think) So calming and so manly.. He smells just like how Kim Jaejoong will smell. (Now I sound like I have a fetish =.= HAHA But I really like guys with nice smelling perfume) Then he left. So sad~! T-T

It was a nice dream overall. I get hugged and I get to smell the nice perfume. HAHA And wow.. I guess my imagination is great even in my dreams. His size, voice, smell, height, clothes and personality is totally the Kim Jaejoong that I know. It's like meeting him in real life, except that it's in my dreams. Awww~  :'(

Now, I do have a valid reason to cherish my dreams even more.


P.S Jaejoong might be appearing on Running Man soon! The lawsuit and ban is over!

Waking up at 5am tomorrow.. And there's still tons of work not done.
I'm gonna die. And I can't forfeit sleep if not I'll be dead before tomorrow comes.
Oh my god! Why is everything cramped together in a week!? 
I'm a bartender for Sugarloaf tomorrow.. Hope everything goes well.
I can't make mistakes and poison my guests.
Fighting! I need lots of it. 

I'm so tired today! Although I only had a group meeting and 3 hours of lecture. Why am I tired? 
Depletion of brain cells?  >__<

Anyway, I should continue with my work tomorrow with a fresh brain. My brain's rather dead now. But at least I got something done.. Which is.. kinda not bad?

In America's terms, not bad means IT'S BAD! 
Hehehe :p

Good night everyone.. YAWNS. 

I'm surprised.. Who reads my blog so often? The views number are increasing randomly.
Is this the work of readers or is it just me forgetting to close the page and refreshing it many times?
But it can't be.. I don't normally keep my webpages open.. HMM Do I have stalkers now?
T^T haha Doesn't matter anyway. All readers are welcome to see how screwed up my life is. 
^-^ Nah, my life isn't screwed up. 

Oh, a rant. I have an urge to learn guitar. It's Jung Yong Hwa's fault! He looks so happy playing it, it makes me wanna learn too! Perhaps I should learn guitar instead of keyboard.. My left and right hand don't normally cooperate well. They can't do separate things. Then I can get a mini guitar.. Cause singing and playing is so cool. And I can compose songs using guitar! It's a good idea right? HAHA But a guitar is expensive right? I should start saving up.. Or maybe I should just play myself a clarinet to play.. Bet my skills are rusty already.. But I can't sing when playing a clarinet.. sigh. I like flute too! It's so elegant. And it's silver. I'm obsessed with silver things. Anyway, yeah. I thought I should at least play an instrumental.. Girls should play an instrument. It's makes you.. more charming? Haha I guess clarinet counts too. Although I'm not a pro at it. But I can hold my breath for pretty long. (Totally random) So it's ideal for playing instruments that needs to be blown. 
I want a flute! (For the silver and elegant factor) Hmm.. I will save up! And collect a variety of instruments! Anyway, most of them can be self learned so it's not a problem. It just takes practice ^-^ Fighting! HAHAHAHAHA 

Perhaps it's because of my Luffy wallpaper that makes me so crazy and motivated. Hehehe
^-^

Dear self,



There's something wrong with me.
I have a project, assignment and cover letter to do.
There I am, playing around with my video webcam.
What am I doing?

Anyway, last day of voting for Talent Race. Do vote.
(I'm not gonna take part in such tiring competitions anymore)

I want the OSIP although it sounds scary and lonely.
But in life, reality is scary and work life is lonely.
Deal with it ^-^
I want a good company too.

SMTOWN was yesterday. Changmin was back in Incheon so fast. Guess he didn't go sightseeing or shopping. It rained a lot yesterday too. Poor f(x) was performing in the rain, according to what news showed. But it was great, I guess. The overall performance. Well.. I wonder if Eunhyuk is still in town. Somewhere playing around or shopping..

Or maybe not. SG is too small to shop around. They probably left. ^-^
Come again, SM! SG welcomes the artists!
(Nice choice of words, Tre..)

-Envious of Seohyun's beauty

Dear self,

What else can I say?
Today is a rather moody day.
I should have known in the morning.
Things are not going to go right.
Talent race- I knew it was all along a scam. 
We're all guinea pigs from the start.
Who actually cares about this competition?
Yes, the prize is attractive.
The price is too much to pay.
If I didn't participate, I wouldn't feel this way now.
There'll be no disappointment, stress or anger of any sort.
I'll be spending my time doing my assignments instead.
It definitely sounds better than having to slave away and getting no end result.

People around you.
It only shows during times like this.
Who are the ones. Who are not. 
Who don't care. Who are just making use of you. 
Who are true friends. Who are treating you as friends with benefits.
It's such a simple task. 
I don't think any excuses will be valid.
It only shows this much about you.
Yet, it shows so much.
Again, if there was no talent race to begin with, this would not have been realized.
Should I be thankful or should I not?

Should I explain how I feel to you or should I not waste my breath on this?
Will you understand my feelings?

It's time to wake up and accept reality.
Because not all things will go the way you've planned,
not everyone will respect you,
not everyone deserves your attention,
not everyone appreciates the things you do.
Perhaps it's time to stop being such a kind person.
Perhaps, I can afford to be a little selfish sometimes.

-Someone stupid who skipped lunch for something others do not even bother

Hello!
Please support my team by helping me like my video!
It's for a competition. Thanks! :)

http://www.facebook.com/LRMTalentRace2012

PLEASE!!! ^-^
Thankyou kind soul.
The voting will stop this friday! So please like before it ends!
Arigato! Thank you! Xie xie! Kamsahadmida! (dk how to spell, LOL)

Everytime when I give a rant on group coupling, I feel so silly. Delusional-ism is getting to me. 
Anyway, I have two deadlines coming up and what am I doing?
Watching One piece and some other random stuff. Luckily I work fast.. Minus the procrastination.
Ahh, I'm sleepy now.







Jackal is coming~
Are you ready?
I'm coming~!
^-^ (Fail pun)

Start doing what you like doing.

Hello everyone,

One Piece craze is back. But this time, it's the Anime not Manga. Watching the Anime is so much faster than reading Manga..
ONE PIECE!

Sorete you wanna be my friend~ 
Haha Only One Piece fans know this line. It's stuck in my head.
Anyway, did I mentioned this before?
One Piece is not just a silly story with pirates and fights and crazy characters.
There are life messages inside!!! >O<
Haha Go watch/read it if you wanna know what I mean.
Or maybe I'm just a very.. easily motivated person.
Luffy makes my day! (I can't even stay mad at Eunhyuk for the scandal anymore. I blame IU. I'm kidding. That was awfully childish of me isn't it?)

Oh! The pimple cream that Anne introduced me was good! Okay, let's be reasonable. The pimples didn't disappear overnight. But it's less red now. And almost gone! The body lotion/cream is good too! I feel so smooth all over. Haha
Cocoa butter is really good ^-^ 

Bye! 
P.S I'm going for a National Museum tour alone tomorrow T-T Lonely me~! Well.. Nevermind. I shall take some alone time with myself! Maybe I'll come home as a better person :)

-Lonely lonely Tre

Do not bring ne out.Like ever. All I do is spend money. haha
I bought 2 headbands, a cardigan, a bag, a portable charger, a dress, mochi a lot of mochi, pimple cream and body lotion.
so..dont ever bring me out. Because I'm curious and I wanna try all the food. I'm versatile so I can buy all the cool and pretty stuff. haha I pity my mum's wallet. And I like Japanese food.. which is expensive in SG. Poor wallet, I feel for you.

Dear self,
You must get a high paying job and buy Mummy whatever she wants.
-exhausted Tre

I got pimples on my forehead again! Curse you period! Why must you bother me with pimples when you have not even come yet?! No wonder girls get PMS pre and post. Cause you caused the pimples and it takes time to heal! Curse you~ >:(
No only you give me pimples.. You give me dry skin too. Curse the female hormones! Haha I think I have an overdose of hormones. The skin around my nose gets so dry it tears. And it hurts! Of course, some ignorant and deaf people will think it's whitehead when I clearly explained that it's skin. Well.. What to do? Then pimples are caused by male hormones I guess. (Why don't all males have pimples then?) Can't they just decide on one only? It's so annoying. It doesn't even neutralize anything! (Or maybe my body is just weird)

Depression soon~! 
Early in the morning, rumors of Eunhyuk forced to stop activities and cannot explain scandal and is going to get sent off to Army. Seriously? SME is so stupid. If they're dating, then yes, they're dating. What's there to hide? IU is perfectly fine as a dating partner. Cute and everything. Not like Eunhyuk's dating DongHae for real, which means he's gay, or like he's dating a granny or something. Why is the management so uptight about it? It doesn't make sense! Grow up people! It's just dating and some.. inappropriate scandal. It's not like your artists consists of robots that don't love or lust. They're humans too. And I personally think that artists are one of the most desperate people around. They need the most love. It's tough.

Or maybe SME is just disappointed that Eunhyuk is straight. Since they're so adamant on the Suju boys are gay thing. Fan service is one thing, personal life is another thing. I mean, out of all 13 in Suju, everyone has the gay image. All of them are coupled up. (Which goes the same for DBSK, but not as bad. I will talk about it later on) 
Heechul is married to Siwon? But he occasionally has affairs with HenGeng? (=.=)
Eunhyuk is Donghae's. (For whatever reasons.. They're just best friends anyway.)
Eetuek is KangIn's. (Though people have already forgotten about it since KangIn's gone for too long. Omma Appa? Rings a bell?)
Then.. We have the random ones like YeWook (Yesung and Ryeowook: the odd pair), KyuMin (Kyuhyun and Sungmin: the normal ones. They're really just brothers).

And then there's Changmin and Kyuhyun, which is the worse pair ever cause they'er both evil. But at least they're cutely evil. Not rumored to be gay couple or what.
I wished I didn't know any about this. Fan service is.. weird sometimes.

Then.. DBSK is famous for YunJae and YooSu, sometimes even soul mate and soul fighter. The rest of the pairings are just normal bromance. Yup.
YunJae- probably the worse thing that ever happened. Well.. Even sometimes I'm doubting Jaejoong's sanity as a man. Him standing beside Yunho, he looks too much of a woman. (Why is Yunho so manly?!). Then.. well.. rumors: They're dating. But it's funny yet weird isn't it? Thinking of them dating is like.. HAHAHA My Jaejoong's is a MAN. For goodness sake.
But looking at them in the perspective of brotherhood, yes, they're awesome. Like the best friendship out there. (But too bad.. you know what I mean) Maybe they do secretly meet up or have phone calls.. No one knows. 

YooSu- is plain cute. If you manage to see them as a dating couple, then.. you're very imaginative and delusional. YooSu is honestly, really, seriously just plain bromance. And plain, too cheesy bromance. They're fluffy and funny. They do stupid thing together and tease each other. (On screen, it is) Yup, it looks healthy enough. No more comments. I like YooSu. It reminds me of me and my close friend. Are we gay as well? 

Soul mate- consists of Jaejoong and Yoochun. Plain bromance too. And maybe a pillar of support too. These two replies on each other so much, I think they'll die without each other. Haha
Pretty much healthy.

Soul fighter- Jaejoong and Changmin. I think.. they're just showing love by trying to kill each other. Yes, this must be it. The famous one touch came from them. They're pretty funny in their own way. Makes me laugh when they fight and argue.. Not healthy at all. Killing each other is not healthy. Especially when Changmin got so much stronger and taller now. (But too bad also..secretly they meet up to beat the crap out of each other. You'll never know) Oh, this couple got famous because Jaejoong kissed Changmin when the latter didn't want to wake up. I mean.. do you see me kissing people because they're a lazy sleepyhead? No. So Jaejoong is just.. GAY! Haha Nah, I'm kidding. He just loves Changmin the most. It's easy to tell. (Secretly, I think he's bisexual. I think everyone agrees)

Bathing time! Maybe this coming year is a good year for me since bad things are happening to those that I.. erm.. care(?) about? Anyway, good things take turns. So.. yeah >-< 

Pictures of last night: 
Went to Gardens by the Bay at midnight.. 
Eh.. My favourite cousin (I always say this jokingly) likes my specs. Haha I like it too. 

 The few who grew up together ^-^

 My aunty told us to pretend to be a couple to cheat others.. So..
Here's my new boyfriend! ^-^ He works at Kheils. Hahaha

HAPPY PEPERO DAY! ^-^
I don't have Pepero at home, so I'm not gonna eat any. But anyone is welcomed to give me some! :p Speaking of which, Junsu and the FCMen are giving out Peperos to 111 fans? So lucky you spectator fans! So FCMen will be playing today right? Did Junsu watch the football matches recently? I'm sure he curse and swear as well. Well.. Guys normally curse while watching matches. It's an unavoidable thing.

Jaejoong.. He's in Vietnam for a fanmeet now. Good news- He got his voice back. I wonder how he sings though. I certainly can't sing immediately when I just recovered from a severe sore throat. I wonder what he did or eat to lose his voice.

It's Deepavali on Tues so there's no school. Hmm.. I'll be stuck with researches anyway. Nothing to celebrate about. And maybe make a trip to some heritage sites for my individual assignment. YiJing totally wants to join my elective. Maybe cause I made it sound so fun? Haha Too bad.

AFA- Anime Festival Asia.
Pictures ready.. Well.. I shall post a few cause I'm that lazy.

 A power ranger

No idea what character

 I'm sure this is not in any anime

 Gundam seed?

 Stoning Jing

 Ouran High's little jumpy cute guy sleeping. Aww

Dear self,
As expected, you can't treat celebrities seriously. Or who they are on screen. Because you will never know when they will show their true colours. They are humans too. And they do normal human things. Though, under restrictions of privacy and freedom. 

Well.. I might or might not be saying this kinda things because of the IU and Eunhyuk scandal. It's a huge thing! Like the SeungRi kind of scandal. Yes yes. That kind.
I mean, IU is in her pajamas and Eunhyuk is shirtless and looking... tired? Sexed up?(Is it even a word?) Yeah, you mean what I mean. They even look like they're on the bed! Or sofa! But does it matter? People can have sex anywhere. (Not like I care) 

What am I talking about? Guess I need to calm down a little. It's kinda disappointing to see your.. erm.. role model for.. 5years? having scandals like this. It's.. like I've been scammed for so long. Maybe all along, the shyness was all an act. Haha Enough talk.

Anyway, today was a rather.. bad day. I was glad I went to AFA but at the same time, I'm disappointed cause of certain matters. Then when I get home.. I get this kinda news! Ahhh~ There's only so much I can take each day! Don't do this to me!! T_T

I'm not a person who's good at keeping promises or remember what I say most of the time. But.. I try to. That's also why I seldom make promises now.. I'm scared I can't actually fulfill them. But if a promise was made to me, even if it wasn't fulfilled, I still would be contented to at least see some effort shown. It's like.. I'm so gullible, I trust everyone, I believe all your words and you can come cheat my feelings. It's so.. unfair? I'm not even asking for much. I'm not even demanding. All I want is.. I don't know? Show that I'm at least a little significant?

It's frustrating not to be taken seriously when I'm being serious. Not taken seriously when I'm angry. Not taken seriously when I say anything. Perhaps it's my problem? Or was it not? Do I still know anymore? Do I not look fierce enough when I'm angry? Or sad enough when I'm disappointed? Or was it the fact that I was always too forgiving? Perhaps I shouldn't be so kind right? Being taken for granted.. This feeling is not something anyone wants to experience. Yet, it is this way. Am I being too sensitive? Or was it pushing the limit?

Anger- Is something I do not normally feel or express. It turns into disappointment in seconds. 
Disappointment- Is a feeling I feel most of the time. When you're making jokes while I'm trying to talk sense. When you're laughing while I'm scolding you. When you're never here while I was waiting. When you're just downright ridiculous and there's nothing I can do about it.

Feeling angry is not good for health, so I've learn to be disappointed instead. Still, I hate both feelings. 

All I'm asking for is to spare some attention for me while you're giving the rest to yourself. 
I just don't get it.

-Tre disappointed for the second time 

So Junsu kept his promise and went to Jackal premiere. Anyway, it's pretty cool. A lot of Jaejoong's friends went. Jin Yi Han and Yoo Hwan. No idea why I particularly remember these two. Did JiSung go? Haha Whatever.

Anyway, maybe my all black style was cool today? Because three guys were taking turns to look at me and smiling so brightly. Well.. I have no idea whether they were looking at me or what. It's just so amusing to see people smiling at you for no reason. It makes me want to laugh. 
It's already official that I'm a loner in school! Boohoo~ T-T
But it's fine. I can survive with that. It's not like everyone hates me or anything. Haha
^-^

Dear self,

Today was a frustrating day.
It started off with a messy bun which I had to tie two times. And I only ate a slice of bread cause I was in a hurry. I missed the earlier bus so I had to rush even more. Luckily, I passed my grooming test. 

It all went well until the plate clearing session came in. Well.. Yeah. I couldn't lift the plate. And the instructors were of no help. I knew how to place the plates and balance, but I just couldn't lift even the base plate. Which is so frustrating. And then.. things happened. 

And I realized how humans really are. Because it's such a competitive and fast-paced country, those that are slower are left behind. Naturally, those who are better, benefit. I'm not blaming anyone for my inability to lift the plates. I'm just disappointed, just a tiny bit, for the fact that self-centeredness was so much on display, irregardless intentional or not. I'm thankful that instructors want to help me. At the same time, just because of tiny insignificant issues that made an imprint, I was left feeling so lousy. Maybe it was the other party ignorance or maybe it was just the situation. But either way, it was not a good feeling. I didn't show my displeasure too. For the fact that it wouldn't be understandable. Perhaps I was being too sensitive and emotional after not being able to do such a simple task that everyone managed to. Or maybe, it was something that I have tolerated for a long time. 

I'm not saying it's a bad thing. But it really depends on the situation and timing is very important. If it was done at a wrong timing, it can really be insulting. I mean.. Yeah. You're bragging to me. Did you consider how I felt at the point when I just told you the problem and you disregarded it? Perhaps, it was ignorance and not being observant. I hate to show my weakness to anyone. But when I show it, perhaps my optimism level was really low already. The least one could have done is just a little advise or not saying anything at all. It could be good enough. But, no. 

I don't know actually.. Is that why people get angry at the insensitiveness and ignorance. It could be possible. Not many can understand and tolerate such behaviour anyway. By doing such things, you could have been judged already. I'm not saying it in a bad way.. Like it's a taboo or anything. I just thought that it wouldn't be a good thing to do to someone. I know I'm being too indirect in my words and reading this would be a chore, but it's my own reflection time. No one has to understand this but me. 

Maybe I have also been tolerating unintentional harmful things done to me. But I have a poor memory, so I forget easily. But everytime the feeling comes, I know it's the same feeling, and it would naturally come back to me that this is done to me before. And maybe, I'll remember. So it's quite terrible in the end. I think I have always been quite a forgivable person and I forget quickly. (Unless I want to tease you or it's really a major thing). I hate arguing with others. Wasting saliva, time and voice. But sometimes.. I appear not to care simply because I do not want to. If I do, I will probably get mad and then start to think about things and then it wouldn't be so pretty anymore. This is so tiring.

Also, stress level is going up these days. I hate dealing with quarrels and childish matters. Those should be done amongst the parties themselves. I do not wish to be involved. Because it's so frustrating when both sides do not cooperate. And what do I actually gain from it? A major headache is highly possible. Why go through the trouble and then the problem remains unresolved? Am I so free? 

Ahh breaking point is near. Everything is all clumped together and mixing around like wires and I'm the one who getting the finalized product. Not pretty at all. I don't have a sanctuary anymore. There's no place for me to stop and think or relax or leave my guards down. I definitely will break down. The happiest people are the ones who are most troubled and depressed. It seems true. Maybe many people think my life is wonderful and carefree with me doing whatever I want most of the time just cause I smile and laugh everyday. Oh please, what a lie. To pass each day, you have to tell yourself you're gonna be happy. Just to survive, you got to pretend you're made of iron and you will never break. If you manage well, maybe you'll succeed. If not, you will just crumble down to pieces and see who will pick it up for you. Yes, you just wait.

Home- was never so bothersome to return to. Welcomed was never an existent feeling.  You have to be on your guard. One mistake and you're going down. It's like a battle war. If you show your weakness. you're left on your own. Even if you're strong and mighty, you still have to fend for yourself. No one will help you and there is no shield for the bullets coming your way. You either die or get injured. Hopelessness and frustration is what you feel most of the time. Because you're left on your own. If you are injured and seek help, the helping hand will never be there. Instead, he will be guarding the entrance to the first aid center, preventing anyone from going in. And he will defend himself first. This, I do not understand. What logic is there? 

In the end, you just have to ignore the pain and hope for time to heal it. Because time heals everything. You will just need to wait for time. But sometimes, time never does comes. Instead, it just passes. And so you forget. And you thought you were healed already. Internally, deep down to your bones, you're still suffering from after effects.

Too much angsty  Yeah, I'm sorry. I didn't meant for this post to come out this way. It just happened. My thoughts are all over the place and.. emotionally I'm exhausted. If I am not given a break soon, I will go crazy. I don't appreciate getting shouted at when I'm already so tired. It only makes me cranky. 

Anyway, advise of the day:
If you do not have anything good to say, don't say anything at all. 

-Emotionally unstable lady 

Hello Hello! ^-^
I thought this was interesting. Hopefully my kids will be sweet like the last few..
They're so sweet, you will go AWWWW~  ^-^
Happy Halloween! xD 


Pictures of fan meet in Jarkata. 
Seriously, he's 27 yet he looks like a child with bangs. Ahhh I love bangs.
And he look so small size! What happen to the muscles man?! :O

He looks so good~ ^-^

Anyway, I only took the pictures that he doesn't look sick in. 

 HoMin in.. Film festival? 
Anyway, SOMEONE FIRE THE STYLIST ALREADY! What's with the bareback suits? Really..
I appreciate them showing their muscular backs (whatever you called it). But it looks horrible. I think I've said this before. SOMEONE! DO SOMETHING! 
Yunho's arms look short for his height.. It's funny. (I have no sense of humor)

 The underwear is showing. FIRE THE STYLIST. (Perhaps fangirls like it?) But I don't. 
Underwear not appreciated please. I don't  wanna know what brand they wear. 
Sigh. Although EVERYONE probably already knows Yunho always wears Calvin Klein and Jaejoong with Skins. I don't get it. Do they only buy this brand or are the underwear sponsored? You know, sponsored stuff have to be flaunted as advertisement. (If clothes, shoes, in this case, underwear) Oh my.. The horror. 
Which reminds me.. Why is my bra Calvin Klein brand last time? Where did that come from? >0<
Horror, horror~

Maybe Changmin's back muscles are lesser.. There aren't many photographs of his back.

(But wow. They have good skin. In my country, it's hard to have good back skin. Cause the weather is so warm! I often have allegies.. T0T )

__________________________________________________________________

Reflection time:

I must never forget to bring my wallet. Then, I'll be broke. And then, I have no keys. And everything gets so troublesome. Also, I must never never forget my wallet when my collection slip is inside. It makes things even worse. In conclusion, I must always bring my wallet!!! ARghhhh

I think.. I might also secretly have an unknown temper. Okay, maybe I do have one. It takes me awhile to cool down. But it's still under control, I guess. It's like.. a small secret temper anyway. When I get too irritated or moody. Yeah. Nothing serious. Hmm I've always been a rather mild person. Like.. a stone. (HAHA My tutor said the class ate stones for lunch when we didn't react to his questions. Funny moment) Mild like never too happy, never too sad, never too angry, never too excited. Okay.. maybe I'm ate stones without knowing.(Does it even make sense?) In short, I'm just a very controlled person. I only lose control.. When I'm alone? These kind of people are normally the scariest right? haha When they explode.. BOOM~! Everyone dies. Anyway, I'm far from exploding. It's still safe being beside me. ^-^

It's tiring always being the middleman. Since I'm a mild person and I take my time to judge, I'm always the middleman. Or was it the fact that I care too much? Either way, it's tiresome. So much to consider. For yourself, the party and the other party. (lol) 

Next time, I can become a lawyer. 

And I realized  in some of the blog posts (I was reading my own blog yesterday night lol), I mentioned things like 'I will explain some other time', 'I will post pics next time', 'Too lazy to type suddenly'. 

And I never did fulfilled what I've said. Well.. why am I bringing this up? I don't know.. 

Anyway, I read the DAEBAK dream of me being a staff member and meeting Eunhyuk & Jaejoong who changes into each other randomly. This was just pure DAEBAKness. Recently, my dreams are so mixed up and ridiculous. I can't even remember them properly when I wake up. (And some are.. explicit. I blame the mangas I'm reading recently) Not that explicit as in sexual.. Just.. Well.. Not for children under 15? Haha Whatever. It's best not to know anyway.  

Got to go~ I feel like reading manga again. 

I've been doing it during bus rides and in bed before I sleep. It's.. like a hobby? 

Anyway, good night.

-Manga Tre