As expected, you can't treat celebrities seriously. Or who they are on screen. Because you will never know when they will show their true colours. They are humans too. And they do normal human things. Though, under restrictions of privacy and freedom.
Well.. I might or might not be saying this kinda things because of the IU and Eunhyuk scandal. It's a huge thing! Like the SeungRi kind of scandal. Yes yes. That kind.
I mean, IU is in her pajamas and Eunhyuk is shirtless and looking... tired? Sexed up?(Is it even a word?) Yeah, you mean what I mean. They even look like they're on the bed! Or sofa! But does it matter? People can have sex anywhere. (Not like I care)
What am I talking about? Guess I need to calm down a little. It's kinda disappointing to see your.. erm.. role model for.. 5years? having scandals like this. It's.. like I've been scammed for so long. Maybe all along, the shyness was all an act. Haha Enough talk.
Anyway, today was a rather.. bad day. I was glad I went to AFA but at the same time, I'm disappointed cause of certain matters. Then when I get home.. I get this kinda news! Ahhh~ There's only so much I can take each day! Don't do this to me!! T_T
I'm not a person who's good at keeping promises or remember what I say most of the time. But.. I try to. That's also why I seldom make promises now.. I'm scared I can't actually fulfill them. But if a promise was made to me, even if it wasn't fulfilled, I still would be contented to at least see some effort shown. It's like.. I'm so gullible, I trust everyone, I believe all your words and you can come cheat my feelings. It's so.. unfair? I'm not even asking for much. I'm not even demanding. All I want is.. I don't know? Show that I'm at least a little significant?
It's frustrating not to be taken seriously when I'm being serious. Not taken seriously when I'm angry. Not taken seriously when I say anything. Perhaps it's my problem? Or was it not? Do I still know anymore? Do I not look fierce enough when I'm angry? Or sad enough when I'm disappointed? Or was it the fact that I was always too forgiving? Perhaps I shouldn't be so kind right? Being taken for granted.. This feeling is not something anyone wants to experience. Yet, it is this way. Am I being too sensitive? Or was it pushing the limit?
Anger- Is something I do not normally feel or express. It turns into disappointment in seconds.
Disappointment- Is a feeling I feel most of the time. When you're making jokes while I'm trying to talk sense. When you're laughing while I'm scolding you. When you're never here while I was waiting. When you're just downright ridiculous and there's nothing I can do about it.
Feeling angry is not good for health, so I've learn to be disappointed instead. Still, I hate both feelings.
All I'm asking for is to spare some attention for me while you're giving the rest to yourself.
I just don't get it.
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